Nov 24, 2006 03:58
it hurts me most that my parents didnt let me dorm...i gave it my all in high skool for the sole purpose that my parents would trust me enough to live somewher else...i see all the people that were able to dorm and that were worse off than i and still they were able to dorm....this only makes me feel worse...i'm not supposed to stay out past 12am according to my parents....i cant dorm; i cant stay out ....whats the fuking deal...
so my sister and brother made a few mistakes....why must i be responsible for their STUDPID FUKING RETARDED mistakes....i gave it my all ..........for nothing....i wish i failed every class in highskool b/c it wouldnt made a difference........
then it hurts me the most when people at college tell me their lives are worse off....i should kill them where their stand...ur parents giving u the freeddom to live on your own....THATS THE GREATEST FUKING PRIVLAGE YOUR PARENTS CAN HANDDOWN TO YOU.... what keeps me up at night is wondering what if iwas at college right now... what if i was that individual that was gone awayy...
why do i drink...the answer is as simple as why am i still here....why arnt i a couple a states over...why cant i learn that the time away from family makes you love family more....why cant i learn responsibillity only comes from showing responsibilty....
honsetly if ur living at college now...u really dont realize how lucky you are...
Super Slurpees, Sckrew(you) Drivers, beers help you forgegt that feeling that there isnt a reason...
if someone like me can find faith in higher things...why is it so hard for others to see...