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[3aiyoda04]

I know I said I would never write about him again but this intrigued me.
Him:
i find myself searching for that one thing that means something to me. tryn
to find my purpose, something to live for... but of coarse my struggle will
remain that, a struggle. i continue to fight for what i think i want but is
it worth it. when i find what im looking for will it b all ive ever dreamed?
or will it b like the rest of my life... a disapointment. tried to find love
and failed. tried to find support and failed. tried to find life and failed.
tried to find that one thing that i can use as my everyday escape from this
hell u call living and failed. whats the point? y try nelonger? i c myself
captured n a world of erotic fantasy...hoping that one day that erotic
fantasy will b mine. a world where i can fuck for more than just the
physical feeling of eternally soft moistness. will that day ever come? no.
so now what? i cant just sit here wating while the eclectic sounds of common
sense whisper its gentle melody n my ears. but what else is there to do? ive
tried every thing i can think of and wasted half of my life doing so. guess
there is no alternative for happiness cuz if there is, its winning n this
lifelong game of hide and seek