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welllll life is alright.
i have alott on my mind all the time though.
and i hate that. i dont wanna think about certain people.
but iunnno i juss cant help it sometimes.
i miss them but then i reallly dont at alll.
and people juss piss me off alottt.
people run their mouths about people.
and then they hang out with eachother ?
haha iunno i juss thinks its stupid.
well the word would be FAKE.
but shittt there alott of them out there.
im juss glad ive finally realized who my real friends are.
the friends who take care of me.
the friends who have my back.
the friends that stand up for me when no one else is.
the friends who threaten to kill people for threatning me haha.
the friends who bitch at THEIR friends for talking shit about me.
and believe me not many of my friends do that.
i hate alottt of people now. ALOTTTT.
and if you knew me before ,, you know i was never like that.
i really had no enemies at alll. i got along with everyone.
but shit happens&people change.
ive realized i dont need someone all the time.
i need to believe in myself.
i need to do shitt on my own.
get my shit together.
ive been through alott of shit these past few years.
ive learned that you can barely trust anyone.
ive learned that you cant depend on someone else.
ive learned people can be really FAKE.
even if you love them or whatever it may be.
you can bend over backwards for someone.
give them everything that you have.
love them and trust in them.
but sometimes it doesnt get you anywhere.
you juss get pain&lies in return.
and it made me realize
wow i was a fucking fool all this time.
it makes me sick to my stomach still.
but all i can do is say FUCK IT.
and move on with my own life.
i know i dont deserve bullshittt.
im such a different person now.
and i think its for the better.
yeahh i have my faults
and my stupid addictions.
but as a person, i think ive grown.
im a stronger person now.
and i never would of thought i could of done this.
but i did it, by MYSELF.
so in conclusion,
im done with all the lies & bullshit.
im done with all the fake people.
im growing up, maybe they should learn to too.
i dont need them in my life, and they wont be.
i have who i need. thats all i wannt.