I Know It's Been A While
Well, I know it's been a while since i've updated. But I'd say I've been to busy, but that would be a lie. I feel the need to vent now though, so you don't have to worry about it. Tonight I have a mixture of feelings. I think I'm slightly homesick. I miss the feeling of holding someone and feeling something. I miss good friends, and I mean really good friends, I have two. I haven't seen either in a very long time. I feel kind of lonely up here. i don't know why I feel this way tonight. i think it's just built up feelings. I don't know what's happening in my life. I'm like a little puppet. I feel things going bad or just not happening, then something happens to get my hopes up, then it seems that something just comes along to tear me back down again. I just don't know what to think about anything, or anyone. But anyway, I think that is enough for now. I don't really like to do this, but I'm hoping it will help. Maybe I'll read some old journals and remember how I thought things might could have been. later....