coming to terms with
I wish I could just tell you everything that's on my mind right now. I want t shout in your face. Smile at you. Cry in front of you. Shout somemore. Sit beside you. Hit you over & over & over again real hard. & then just rub the places where I hit you cos I didn't want to hurt you. I never did. I never would. I never could. I hope I never have.
What do you do when you don't know if a person cares about you even as just a friend? When you've given so much of yourself that end the of the day you realise you've got nothing t show for it? When you realise just how incredibly much you've been hurt?
I've only recently come to deal with the fact that above everything else, I am just so hurt. That's what happens when you kind of actually trust someone to not hurt you, when they actually say "trust me, i'll never do anything to hurt you". It's double the hurt. He just got up, picked up & left.
What do you do? What can you do? Simple. Hide behind a mask, lor. Breathe. Stop thinking about how much was ever true. Entertain yourself with your bad singing. And just think about how you wish you had a frigging drag now. Tell myself it's all in the mind.. well fuck that cos I'm heartbroken. Okay? I'm sorry if that's a problem for anybody.
What do you do when you don't know if a person cares about you even as just a friend? When you've given so much of yourself that end the of the day you realise you've got nothing t show for it? When you realise just how incredibly much you've been hurt?
I've only recently come to deal with the fact that above everything else, I am just so hurt. That's what happens when you kind of actually trust someone to not hurt you, when they actually say "trust me, i'll never do anything to hurt you". It's double the hurt. He just got up, picked up & left.
What do you do? What can you do? Simple. Hide behind a mask, lor. Breathe. Stop thinking about how much was ever true. Entertain yourself with your bad singing. And just think about how you wish you had a frigging drag now. Tell myself it's all in the mind.. well fuck that cos I'm heartbroken. Okay? I'm sorry if that's a problem for anybody.