Medyo Marami.
aamin ako. kanina lang ako naiyak sa isang blog entry ng isang mabuting kaibigan at isang hinahangaan ko kasi bigla kong naisip sana minsan may gumawa rin ng ganon para sa akin. tangina. naluha talaga. natamaan ako kasi malamang 'yon rin mapupuntahan ko.
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hanggang ngayon naiisip pa rin kita. kung paano tayo ngayon kung pinili mo ako imbis na sa kanya. sinabi ko naman sa'yo no'n e, kaya kitang alagaan pero mas pinili mo yung na subukan mo na. naisip ko lang, sayang tayo... mukhang matagal-tagal bago magmahal ako ng tunay ulet. oo isang taon na ang lumipas. mahigit sampung buwan na rin siguro tayong di nag-uusap. tumulong yung hindi tayo nagkikita. umiwas na rin naman ako e pero gusto kong malaman mo na ang dami ring nawala sa akin pero higit sa lahat ikaw ang nawala. tangina ang baduy man sabihin pero yon na yon. Noon dadaan ako at magkukunwaring bibili lang ng kape pero sa totoo lang nagbabakasakali ako na andun para kahit papaano ay masilayan kita. Sa'yo ko unang naramdaman na nagustuhan mo ako na wala man lang akong ginawa para magustuhan mo ng ganon. Iniisip ko minsan kung natakot ka ba na iwanan siya e or kung natakot ka dahil hindi mo pa talaga ako kilala. sana naging mabuting magkaibigan na lang muna tayo baka mas okay pa yun e. at siguro ngayon magkaibigan pa rin tayo at siguro kaibigan lang rin ang tingin ko sa'yo ngayon. Pero hinde, minahal kita at ngayon, parang meron pa rin naman pero hindi na ganon kalala. Isang taon na ang lumipas. Gusto ko namang sumaya. Alam kong masaya ka. Okay na 'yon. Sa tingin mo, kaya na natin ulit mag-usap? Hay. Ang laking gaan siguro non.
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as for you, I only pretend to like B to cover it up the truth is, I have a crush on you. I enjoyed every moment you rode in front and kept yourself up while I was driving during the wee hours of the morning. There was a bunch of times we had our hands tied up in some way because you were picking songs in the iPod while I was switching gears. Pa simple pa kitang kinakalabit para magseatbelt ka. We're so alike in many ways and you're an amazing person. Although, you intrigue me, really... How can someone like you have only had one relationship your entire life? Why? Was it that bad? Or are you just not interested right now? So many would want you to fall in love with them... I am merely watching from the sidelines, waiting to see what happens. I like knowing that I'm your friend and who you have a lot in common with. You intrigue me, my friend, maybe that's why I crush you because there's a mystery in you bound to be solved sooner or later. I want to be able to know you better... Let's have coffee some time and just talk. Coffee, cigarettes and a lot talking... Hopefully just the two of us...
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hanggang ngayon naiisip pa rin kita. kung paano tayo ngayon kung pinili mo ako imbis na sa kanya. sinabi ko naman sa'yo no'n e, kaya kitang alagaan pero mas pinili mo yung na subukan mo na. naisip ko lang, sayang tayo... mukhang matagal-tagal bago magmahal ako ng tunay ulet. oo isang taon na ang lumipas. mahigit sampung buwan na rin siguro tayong di nag-uusap. tumulong yung hindi tayo nagkikita. umiwas na rin naman ako e pero gusto kong malaman mo na ang dami ring nawala sa akin pero higit sa lahat ikaw ang nawala. tangina ang baduy man sabihin pero yon na yon. Noon dadaan ako at magkukunwaring bibili lang ng kape pero sa totoo lang nagbabakasakali ako na andun para kahit papaano ay masilayan kita. Sa'yo ko unang naramdaman na nagustuhan mo ako na wala man lang akong ginawa para magustuhan mo ng ganon. Iniisip ko minsan kung natakot ka ba na iwanan siya e or kung natakot ka dahil hindi mo pa talaga ako kilala. sana naging mabuting magkaibigan na lang muna tayo baka mas okay pa yun e. at siguro ngayon magkaibigan pa rin tayo at siguro kaibigan lang rin ang tingin ko sa'yo ngayon. Pero hinde, minahal kita at ngayon, parang meron pa rin naman pero hindi na ganon kalala. Isang taon na ang lumipas. Gusto ko namang sumaya. Alam kong masaya ka. Okay na 'yon. Sa tingin mo, kaya na natin ulit mag-usap? Hay. Ang laking gaan siguro non.
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as for you, I only pretend to like B to cover it up the truth is, I have a crush on you. I enjoyed every moment you rode in front and kept yourself up while I was driving during the wee hours of the morning. There was a bunch of times we had our hands tied up in some way because you were picking songs in the iPod while I was switching gears. Pa simple pa kitang kinakalabit para magseatbelt ka. We're so alike in many ways and you're an amazing person. Although, you intrigue me, really... How can someone like you have only had one relationship your entire life? Why? Was it that bad? Or are you just not interested right now? So many would want you to fall in love with them... I am merely watching from the sidelines, waiting to see what happens. I like knowing that I'm your friend and who you have a lot in common with. You intrigue me, my friend, maybe that's why I crush you because there's a mystery in you bound to be solved sooner or later. I want to be able to know you better... Let's have coffee some time and just talk. Coffee, cigarettes and a lot talking... Hopefully just the two of us...