sorry kinda need to vent here...
so i'm in one place for the time being.... lol
so much shit has happened these past 4 weeks. iv lived in like 4 different places but am stationary at least for 2 weeks, then who the fuck knows. i've gotten to the point where i am beginning to numb things out. im not too happy bout that but shit happens yano? it just sucks cuz i worked so hard over the summer to progress psychologically this summer and to have it all fucked over by so much shit really bites. i was so excited to feel something normal in life, to actually deal with normal teenage things, have the feeling of being vulnerability cuz i let someone into my life n then out of pure teenage drama they are gone. i was so happy to deal with that. no matter how fucked up that sounds, i wanted it. im sick of dealing with the shit i have to deal with. my friends were like "ahh she told him this and its a lie...this is what i deal with everyday" n i was like "wow, well i deal with calling my social worker everyday to see how long i'm gona be living in the house i'm at" like honestly WHO DOES THAT?!?
my junior year is so important why the fuck does all of my family shit have to start up again?!? i was hoping it would subside atleast till mid year or something, but its right in the beginning and now i'm behind in school and have no motivation to catch up cuz of everything. i was so motivated before this shit started n now its just gone. like what the fuck!
yah well i'm done i guess. i'll leave with these lyrics, which i love.
memories and silence fills each room
overwhelming heavy as the tidal waves consume
buried underneath the dust & gloom
relics are reminders of my family of two
pictures of a happy bride and groom
ferry rides around the harbor on our honeymoon
wedding gifts of pots and pans
sleeping while were holding hands
as gracie lays upon us as we spoon
how could i ever be so blind that i could not see
how could i ever stray from what has meant so much to me
how could i ever gain her trust without the guarantees
of who i am or where i'll be
so now we live in fear of the unknown
insecure and skepticle her trust in me was blown
despite the past we face we both have grown
through the pain to find the strength together or alone
how could i ever be so blind that i could not see
how could i ever stray from what has meant so much to me
how could i ever gain her trust without the guarantees
of who i am or where i'll be
how could i ever be so blind that i could not see
how could i ever stray from what has meant so much to me
how could i ever gain her trust without the guarantees
of who i am or where i'll be