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today is one of those awkward days...i can already tell. i have this thesis looming above, and i don't know what to do about it...i've kinda dug myself a hole and can't get out. what am i going to do good friends? i guess i'm just going to have to start working on it. but i really don't want too. but i have too. bah. i can't get away from this one....sigh.
this morning i was walking by myself....and i was thinking about going home. i'm afraid of going home in some ways...i hate the feeling that home isn't what its supposed to be. but with my momma there...i know that things will be OK. and its ok that i don't have that many friends in dubtown. it seems weird that i don't, b/c i used to feel i had many. and now i feel i have many....but i'll be leaving soon. and then, when i come back here, will i feel empty and lonely again? i guess i'll find out.
but the real question is...how can i change teh world and make it better. it'll probably never be better, realistically. any fire i might be able to put out, another would pop up. ahh. i'm just really confused and awkward.
awesome.
great.
fantastic.
this morning i was walking by myself....and i was thinking about going home. i'm afraid of going home in some ways...i hate the feeling that home isn't what its supposed to be. but with my momma there...i know that things will be OK. and its ok that i don't have that many friends in dubtown. it seems weird that i don't, b/c i used to feel i had many. and now i feel i have many....but i'll be leaving soon. and then, when i come back here, will i feel empty and lonely again? i guess i'll find out.
but the real question is...how can i change teh world and make it better. it'll probably never be better, realistically. any fire i might be able to put out, another would pop up. ahh. i'm just really confused and awkward.
awesome.
great.
fantastic.