I HOPE EVERYONE READS THIS!
I'm so unhappy with life, so very very unhappy, and I've been this way since I graduated highschool. I feel like one of those kids who is plotting suidice... only I'm not, although I do feel like I'm already dead. The things that happen to me in life just seem to be something of a routine, its like everytime things are finally going the way the should or the way they need, they turn to shit, or I fuck them up. Its seems like this time I fucked everything up and I dont even know what I did...
once again I've been pulled from school to only have to wait another semester until I get to go back, and if that wasn't bad enough I have to start paying back 10,000 FUCKING dollars in student loans starting in november. I'm stuck at a FUCKING job I can't stand with my father who of all people I hate and despise the most. Not to add insult to injury but it turns out I was wrong about the one person I care about the most in my life... why is my life so bad? I'm so angry because of my parents, I can't seem to keep the relationship which I hold so close to me alive, because Im nothing but a fuck up, I have no money to pay any of my bills, I've lost a friend and girlfriend all at the same time and it all happens at the worst time.
All my close friends have moved, my girlfriend doesnt even wanna be my girlfriend, I'm basically a college dropout and I'm pretty much a waste of life.
I'm not looking for sympathy, so please if your gunna give me that spare me... because there isn't anything anyone can say to make this all better. I would just like to apologize publicly to Natalie Loredo for being a douche bag all the time, and I would also like to apologize to her for being a burden to her and a waste of life, I'm sorry for being a waste of time and life and I know I'm forcing you to be in this relationship, but just so you know even though you dont want to be with me or there for me, just knowing you are helps a little bit; so I guess I'm saying thank you for letting me burden your life even more than I already have.
well as a small attempt to make my life better I'm gunna go to sleep at exactly 5:10 pm and hope that I never wake up again.
p.s. I need to apologize ahead of time to anyone and everyone who is gunan witness my pathetic and feeble attempt at stability and comfort on saturday... I'm sorry!
once again I've been pulled from school to only have to wait another semester until I get to go back, and if that wasn't bad enough I have to start paying back 10,000 FUCKING dollars in student loans starting in november. I'm stuck at a FUCKING job I can't stand with my father who of all people I hate and despise the most. Not to add insult to injury but it turns out I was wrong about the one person I care about the most in my life... why is my life so bad? I'm so angry because of my parents, I can't seem to keep the relationship which I hold so close to me alive, because Im nothing but a fuck up, I have no money to pay any of my bills, I've lost a friend and girlfriend all at the same time and it all happens at the worst time.
All my close friends have moved, my girlfriend doesnt even wanna be my girlfriend, I'm basically a college dropout and I'm pretty much a waste of life.
I'm not looking for sympathy, so please if your gunna give me that spare me... because there isn't anything anyone can say to make this all better. I would just like to apologize publicly to Natalie Loredo for being a douche bag all the time, and I would also like to apologize to her for being a burden to her and a waste of life, I'm sorry for being a waste of time and life and I know I'm forcing you to be in this relationship, but just so you know even though you dont want to be with me or there for me, just knowing you are helps a little bit; so I guess I'm saying thank you for letting me burden your life even more than I already have.
well as a small attempt to make my life better I'm gunna go to sleep at exactly 5:10 pm and hope that I never wake up again.
p.s. I need to apologize ahead of time to anyone and everyone who is gunan witness my pathetic and feeble attempt at stability and comfort on saturday... I'm sorry!