Save the planet! Kill all humans!
Maybe I'm just too high strung. I don't know when it happened, I used to be so laid back. But anymore, I just cannot stand people anymore. I just want to gouge their eyes out, or sever their vocal cords. I suppose I could settle with the vocal cords.
I realized last night that I don't like big parties. Everyone was having a great time, getting wasted or whatever, and I just couldn't keep up with anyone. I was always arriving just at the end of any excitement, and didn't have a fucking thing to say. I just felt like a fly on the wall, watching, but not really noticed.
More than that, I can't stand people at big parties who are wasted. Or maybe it's just Reed I can't stand. That guy is such a disrespectful prick. Goddamit.
I wish I were like him.
But instead, I worry about what people think of me. If they like me or not. If they view me as good enough, or just tolerable. I need help, I would like to see a psychiatrist, but fuck all if I can find one that will work for free.
I don't trust anyone, either. Anyone who wants to do something, I view with suspicion. I'm very prejudiced like that, it seems.
I have very little hope. Just a thin thread, barely hanging on, and the more I see hope around me, the less I have.
I realized last night that I don't like big parties. Everyone was having a great time, getting wasted or whatever, and I just couldn't keep up with anyone. I was always arriving just at the end of any excitement, and didn't have a fucking thing to say. I just felt like a fly on the wall, watching, but not really noticed.
More than that, I can't stand people at big parties who are wasted. Or maybe it's just Reed I can't stand. That guy is such a disrespectful prick. Goddamit.
I wish I were like him.
But instead, I worry about what people think of me. If they like me or not. If they view me as good enough, or just tolerable. I need help, I would like to see a psychiatrist, but fuck all if I can find one that will work for free.
I don't trust anyone, either. Anyone who wants to do something, I view with suspicion. I'm very prejudiced like that, it seems.
I have very little hope. Just a thin thread, barely hanging on, and the more I see hope around me, the less I have.