Just another one
Of those days. I slept like shit because it was so cold outside. The wind was blowing a gale. It's still the beginning of August and it's turning winter in Maine. Fought with Clyde over the sleeping bag all night. Rob woke us up at 6, then a spider scared him away. We slept in until noon then I had to fight C to come with me to the Salvation Army. They were serving something that was too gooey to be rice, and too chunky to be potatoes and whatever it was, it was swimming in grease. Needless to say I only ate the peas and cake. Walked down to the library to charge my phone. Clyde fell in to this existential crisis and started repeating, "I've been having these really strange thoughts lately. Like a scattered memory of a far-off dream, or a far-off dream of a distant memory. I feel like there's a separate person inside me at the bottom of a dark pool 40 Sundays ago in reverse." Stuff like that. He asked some random dude where the Oasis was. I got embarrassed and harped at him to stop and come on, but this guy actually knew what it was. A massage parlor that closed about 8 years ago. On that spot there was now a used book shop. The owner took Clyde for a tour of the rare books from the 1700s. Clyde asked him to order a hardback copy of Beelzebub's tales to his grandson. I feel uncomfortable when he gets in these moods because as his girlfriend I feel like I should be able to tell him what he wants to hear. "Is it a dream, or is this real?" Makes me uncomfortable when I can't. My social security card came in today, but I feel Streetlight wasn't being very helpful. No bus tickets, no food from the cupboard. I made C catch the Manna bus with me. They served some good food. Corn, potatoes, macaroni and cheese. I even topped it all off with a slice of key lime pie. I'm trying to be healthier, but when you're only eating one or two meals a day, it's hard to practice restraint. There's another girl who wants me to beat up Pink. I don't know if I can do it. The less money you have, the less your time is worth.