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i know this may come as a shock to you but me and Adam are no longer together!!!
why the exclamation points?? well i have finally come to realize that i dont need him anymore. i cried for maybe 20 minutes tops over the initial shock of the break up. and then the rest of the crying was over the fact that he wants to take Gabriel for the summer. which I'm my head and everyone else's sounds as if he is trying to take Gabe FROM me. thats not going to happen. i told him he could have him for the weekends.
he claims the baby is so important to him. more important then life itself. but he is dragging out coming and seeing his son. or even talking to me about plans about how this whole visitation thing is going to work out. i dunno.
I'm planning on going to Florida for a few months with a friend. she is trying to sell her house and since she cant get a house up here till that one is sold she figures she might as well just go back home to her husband until it is sold. i was offered to go with her so i could get out of my house to make it easier on my rents and so that i could finally get my shit together. she wants to put my car in her name so we can drive down. but i still don't know how Adam i'd going to react to it. not that he can do anything about it because i am taking thr baby with me to better myself and his life. unlike Adam who is probably planning on living off of Sam forever. whatever he is an ass. i wish i had never wasted my time on him. but if i didn't i wouldn't have my beautiful baby boy.
but things are looking up for me already. i have had plans for this weekend before the whole breakup happened. and now i can use this baby free weekend to my advantage. saturday im going to a barbeque with by bestest friend inky and her family! and then either that night or sunday night im going clubbing with my friend dayane, the one im going to florida with. im stoked.
im finding myself again. i never knew how much of my life i had made around adam. and he was never really around. now i am learning that i can do anything i want and i dont have to worry abot what anyone thinks. and i dont have to answer to anyone but myself and my son. im going on walks. calling and talking to old friends. making plans for the future that wont be ripped from me like all the plans me and adam had made for ourselves.
ill get my car on the road and then there will be no stopping me. ill be a free woman that will finally be independent. my outlook on life has never been clearer. as long as i have friends and my son by my side, NOTHING can stand on my way. and i mean NOTHING!!! adam and his slut can ty as they can to knock down my doors of dignity but they wont budge. and when she finally boots his mooching ass out the door ill just laugh. if he happens ot come knocking on my door, ill let him in, because i have a heart. but i will not let him into my heart. i can only hope that when all of this happens i can be as strong as i say i can be. ill probably give in. unless of course i have created a family of my own.
my buddy nick is trying to get me to get with his buddy adam. dont know that im ready for another adam right now though. but ill keep you all updated. ill expect a good ass kicking if i tell you all that me and adam are back together. but if by chance me and this other adam get together ill expect kudos up the ass. he has morals and cant wait to meet gabriel. he loves kids and he likes to drink like me and he smokes so he wont mind that i do. dont think ill be single for long!!
why the exclamation points?? well i have finally come to realize that i dont need him anymore. i cried for maybe 20 minutes tops over the initial shock of the break up. and then the rest of the crying was over the fact that he wants to take Gabriel for the summer. which I'm my head and everyone else's sounds as if he is trying to take Gabe FROM me. thats not going to happen. i told him he could have him for the weekends.
he claims the baby is so important to him. more important then life itself. but he is dragging out coming and seeing his son. or even talking to me about plans about how this whole visitation thing is going to work out. i dunno.
I'm planning on going to Florida for a few months with a friend. she is trying to sell her house and since she cant get a house up here till that one is sold she figures she might as well just go back home to her husband until it is sold. i was offered to go with her so i could get out of my house to make it easier on my rents and so that i could finally get my shit together. she wants to put my car in her name so we can drive down. but i still don't know how Adam i'd going to react to it. not that he can do anything about it because i am taking thr baby with me to better myself and his life. unlike Adam who is probably planning on living off of Sam forever. whatever he is an ass. i wish i had never wasted my time on him. but if i didn't i wouldn't have my beautiful baby boy.
but things are looking up for me already. i have had plans for this weekend before the whole breakup happened. and now i can use this baby free weekend to my advantage. saturday im going to a barbeque with by bestest friend inky and her family! and then either that night or sunday night im going clubbing with my friend dayane, the one im going to florida with. im stoked.
im finding myself again. i never knew how much of my life i had made around adam. and he was never really around. now i am learning that i can do anything i want and i dont have to worry abot what anyone thinks. and i dont have to answer to anyone but myself and my son. im going on walks. calling and talking to old friends. making plans for the future that wont be ripped from me like all the plans me and adam had made for ourselves.
ill get my car on the road and then there will be no stopping me. ill be a free woman that will finally be independent. my outlook on life has never been clearer. as long as i have friends and my son by my side, NOTHING can stand on my way. and i mean NOTHING!!! adam and his slut can ty as they can to knock down my doors of dignity but they wont budge. and when she finally boots his mooching ass out the door ill just laugh. if he happens ot come knocking on my door, ill let him in, because i have a heart. but i will not let him into my heart. i can only hope that when all of this happens i can be as strong as i say i can be. ill probably give in. unless of course i have created a family of my own.
my buddy nick is trying to get me to get with his buddy adam. dont know that im ready for another adam right now though. but ill keep you all updated. ill expect a good ass kicking if i tell you all that me and adam are back together. but if by chance me and this other adam get together ill expect kudos up the ass. he has morals and cant wait to meet gabriel. he loves kids and he likes to drink like me and he smokes so he wont mind that i do. dont think ill be single for long!!