Give My Heart For You
Band: Dir en grey
Rating: R-NC/17
Pairing: KaoxKyo main
Previous Chapters:
1
2
3
A/N: weee.. after I finish the 5th chapter, which is in slowprogress, I'll probably start posting this on some communitiez.. hmm.. <3
Disclaimer- I dun own Diru, yo 0.0 but what I do own is this compu... BWAHAHA
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Chapter 4 - ZOMBOID
It wasn’t too long before they left and were driving though the city. Kaoru left it to Kyo to decide where they would go, so he had chosen a small traditional restaurant that they frequented during breaks on practice days, since it was just down the street.
After being greeted and seated, they placed their usual order. The young woman smiled and nodded along, jotted down the requests, then headed off once they were finished. The place was very simple with rice paper dividers, low tables, and waitresses wearing plain but decorative kimono. Shinya had always been slightly wary of the place when they came, the girls a bit too flirty with the tall redhead for his liking.
The two had actually been together since their early days but Shinya would never admit to being the jealous type. Kyo had actually been the one to get them together in the first place. Back in La: Sadies when Die had joined Shinya and Kyo, Die had immediately developed a crush on the effeminate one. The thing is, Die had believed Shinya to be female because of the way he naturally looked and acted. The redhead had never been involved with a man, though he was far from closed minded to it, and things became quite awkward after that. So Kyo had decided to take it upon himself to get things settled between them, and they've been together since.
Kaoru raised an eyebrow and watched silently as Kyo occupied himself by playing with his chopsticks, walking them over the table and whatever may lay on top. "Umm..Kyo? What the hell are you doing?"
Kyo's eyes flicked up to the ones across from him, stopping all motion and remaining completely still. The only response given was a slight questioning grunt.
Kaoru stared at him for a moment, he looked kind of evil.. but in a cluelessly retarded way. "...You're weird, you know that?" a smile broke to his face as the blonde grinned and nodded enthusiastically. Kaoru was about to make another comment but was suddenly stopped by a steaming bowl of misou soup.
Kaoru couldn’t help but gawk at how Kyo just rammed right through any food he could find on his side of the table. Of course he really hadn't had a decent meal in almost a week, between the concerts and hospital stay. But it was still a slightly unsettling sight nonetheless. "So, what do ya say when we're finished here, we go to your place and.." he let the sentence hang, raising an eyebrow in a suggestive manner. "..go through your stuff?" ending his sentence with a flick of his tongue that never seemed to keep where it belonged. Kyo stopped mid munch to stare at the guitarist, and as he dropped one chopstick, he threw the other at the man's face. "Fine. I'm done anyway." He said, stretching backwards. Kaoru nodded and waved the waitress over so he could pay.
Once they left the restaurant, they were back in the car and on their way to Kyo's house. Kyo was in quite an odd mood and was singing along to anything that came across the radio, even, much to Kaoru's distaste, Morning Musume. "Though you are a vocalist, it worries me that you know most of these songs." Kaoru commented as he turned the corner to Kyo's street, a commercial ranting away.
Kyo stared, as if thinking but only for a second then blurted out as if one word "Shinya's fault."
Kaoru sighed and shook his head in slight amusement as they pulled up into the driveway. Right when the car settled down, Kyo hopped out to unlock the door, and disappeared inside. Kaoru ignored it and after turning everything off, he followed.
Even after all the times of being inside the small house, he still imagined it to be a complete mess. Kyo just seemed the type to be too busy sleeping to actually clean, but it was almost spotless, he was just too busy sleeping to make said mess in the first place. It somehow fit him though. He found Kyo in his room, feeding and playfully taunting his rats as they scurried like bullets through the cage. Kyo patted their heads with his finger before standing and turning to the purple haired guitarist.
Kaoru smiled at him and nodded to the room they were currently in. "We really should get started.." he said, walking more into the middle of the room and made a gesture as if asking if Kyo minded him touching his stuff. When Kyo shook his head, Kaoru went out to get boxes from his car.
After more than 2 hours they were almost finished, with only the living room left, which was good because Kaoru's car was nearing internal combustion. Kyo slowed though when he came to a shelf of photos. Scattered across the shelf were various sized frames of his band and close friends. His mind went through the memories of each captured moment as they were placed carefully into a small box. But as he came to one picture of his family, the only one he had of his own, he stopped.
Kaoru was at the other side of the room taping his last box when he heard the slow cracking of glass. Turning, he saw Kyo wasn’t really moving much and walked over to him. "Kyo, you okay?" he asked, placing a hand on his shoulder. Kyo didn't say anything but Kaoru could feel the tension. He knelt down next to the blonde and as he did, he saw the frame Kyo was holding, his fingers clenched the so tight that the glass was cracked in spiderwebs. As small drops of blood began to fall, so did a few tears.
Yanking the frame away, and thanking all gods he didn’t cause more damage in his haste, Kaoru pushed the box away and got down onto his knees in front of Kyo. "Kyo?!" He called in a slightly raised voice. Kyo looked at him, but said nothing, a few wet trails still there.
Kaoru looked down at the slightly larger hands, holding them carefully palm up, examining the wounded fingertips. Looking back to Kyo, he stood. "Let's get you fixed up, okay?" At first Kyo didn’t react but when he could tell Kaoru had already gone to the kitchen, he stood and soon joined.
In the kitchen Kaoru had already pulled some supplies from the case they had left inside just incase. Kaoru looked at Kyo, motioning him over. The blonde man walked over slowly, his eyes set on the various items placed on the counter. Kaoru remained silent as he carefully took the other's hands, moving them to hover over the sink. Kyo barely reacted at all as his friend disinfected and dressed his fingers. He just stood quietly, watching.
When finished with putting everything back into the case, Kaoru looked at Kyo who still hadn’t moved. He watched him closely, the man in front of him looked so dead already, in another way though. Without breaking the calm silence, he lifted a hand softly to the other's cheek. He wanted so much to help Kyo in any way possible, and he wanted it to be known. Kyo leaned slightly to the hand but nothing more, his eyes cast downward as if in a trance of thought.
Kaoru watched him quietly for a moment before leaning in, placing a light kiss on the vocalists lips. Kyo didn’t do anything, didn’t even flinch, he just continued to stare blankly down. Kaoru pulled away slightly and scanned over his face before kissing him again, only deeper. This time Kyo responded, his eyes dropped shut and he pressed against the kiss, lips parting slightly. Kaoru was surprised at the cooperation but didn’t want it to end. His tongue snaked its way past those lips, messaging softly against Kyo's.
Kyo's hands came up to grip Kaoru's belt loops, and ignoring the slight sting he pulled the taller one tightly against him as he suckled at the invading tongue. He boldly grinded their crotches together, his mind lost with what was going on. Kaoru gasped slightly at the sudden move but gladly returned it, pressing Kyo against the counter with his hips. The slightly taller man leaned Kyo back until he was bracing himself on the tiling with his elbows, fingers still tightly hooked in the straps.
Kaoru's lips lefts Kyo's slightly swollen ones to kiss a light trail to his neck, nipping at the skin along it. He was slightly wary to how accepting Kyo was being, but shrugged it off not wanting to ruin the moment. Kyo let go of him and pulled himself up to sit on the edge of the counter, legs parting to be at either side of the other man. Kaoru's hands came up to rest at Kyo's thighs when Kyo's came up to wrap over his shoulders. His fingers tracing small designs along the inside and up near his slightly bulged crotch.
Kyo whimpered when as felt Kaoru's nails drag over the front of his jeans, hips pressing to the feeling in want. The purple haired man grinned against Kyo's neck as he bit down, the spot being sensitive causing Kyo to moan loudly. Kaoru's fingers worked to undo Kyo's pants opening them and pulling him free, one hand stroking over the head with his palm. Kyo leaned back against the wall behind him, lips parted though nothing but silent pants escaped.
Kaoru watched him for a moment, slowly pumping while watching his lust filled reactions. Smiling slightly, he leaned down and wrapped his lips over the tip, gently teasing it with his tongue. When his hands had succeeded in pulling the pants down further to mid thigh he brought one back up to cradle Kyo's balls as his mouth took in the entire length, his other hand going to Kyo's waist holding him down. He would sometimes pull away and blow across it and give long licks along the shaft, like it was his own little Kyocicle, and he loved the flavor. The hand at his sack messaging gently, coaxing him further.
Kyo was too lost to think at all anymore, not that he could before. He let out long low moans as Kaoru worked, giving him so much pleasure. He had actually never been with a man before, but at the moment he couldn't really give a damn, it felt too good to stop. With all the women he had shared beds with, he had never had this kind of feeling run through him. He didn't know how to place it but it couldn’t have just been the feel of Kaoru's tongue on him. No. Something different. He didn’t want to think about stuff like that though, not right now. So after a while of moans and unsuccessful thrusts he let his head fall back and came deep into the older man's throat.
Kaoru had to hold the blonde down with both hands as he began to reach his orgasm, his thrusts becoming more insistent. But when he finally came, let go allowing him to thrust himself all the way in, sending the thick liquid down his throat. Kaoru had almost gagged from the force but was able to settle himself and pulled off, swallowing what would be left on his tongue. He kissed the head and looked up at Kyo who was still recovering from the experience. He actually thought that this would have been Kyo's first time with a guy, but it didn’t seem like it, maybe the other man just never felt right to mentioned it.
"Kyo.." he whispered as he leaned forward to place another kiss on the mans lips. Kyo looked up at him with glazed eyes and sat up shakily to kiss him deeply, arms going around his neck pulling him closer. Kaoru was again surprised but leaned into it, kissing him back passionately as he undid his own zipper and pulled himself out. Kyo didn’t hesitate one bit and just leans back again, pulling Kaoru to lean over him with the kiss. Kaoru tugged Kyo's pants down lower to bunch around his ankles and as he did he pulled from the kiss, leaning against Kyo's ear. "Aishiteru.. Kyo.."
'Aishiteru..?' Kyo's mind was trying to process this word, his mind was still hazed and it wasn't one he was accustomed to. He tried hard to keep on track with his thoughts as he kissed at Kaoru's neck. Kaoru nuzzled into Kyo's shoulder as he messaged a finger around the entrance. 'he.. loves me..?' Kyo still didn’t quite grasp the concept, but was brought from his thoughts when he felt something enter him. Suddenly he shot up, causing the finger to slip out and he looked at Kaoru with wide eyes.
Kaoru stared up at him, confused. "Kyo..? Did I hurt you? I'm sorry." Kaoru leaned up to try kissing him in apology but was pushed away with enough force to knock him against the opposite counter. Immediately he knew he had done something wrong, but he couldn't react, it was suddenly going too fast.
Kyo didn’t move after he had pushed him away, he just stared, panting. Looking down he saw himself, he quickly jumped down and rushed in pulling his pants up and as he fastened them he whispered something repeatedly. "I..I'm not a fag.. I'm no faggot...FUCK!" Kyo looked around as if lost and then at Kaoru, who looked completely crushed holding himself up against the counter. "I'm not.. a faggot..." with tears already forming in the corners of his eyes, Kyo darted out of the room.
Kaoru too shocked to move, jumped when Kyo had ran. He quickly pushed himself back into his pants, ignoring the extreme discomfort and ran after him but was too late when the front door was slammed right before he could get to it. Out of frustration he punched it. He noticed a window right beside him and quickly parted two blinds and looked out to make sure Kyo hadn't left completely, and was relieved to see Kyo had gone straight into the car. Luckily he still had his keys with him so Kyo couldn’t really go anywhere. But now what would he do? Kyo probably hated him.
Was he going to fast? Had he hurt him somehow? He was sure that Kyo was enjoying it, he couldn’t help himself. Looking down he sighed in defeat, and taking one last glance at Kyo through the glass, he turned around and headed into the bathroom, figuring it would be worse on many levels to get into the car with a full hard-on.
Rating: R-NC/17
Pairing: KaoxKyo main
Previous Chapters:
1
2
3
A/N: weee.. after I finish the 5th chapter, which is in slowprogress, I'll probably start posting this on some communitiez.. hmm.. <3
Disclaimer- I dun own Diru, yo 0.0 but what I do own is this compu... BWAHAHA
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Chapter 4 - ZOMBOID
It wasn’t too long before they left and were driving though the city. Kaoru left it to Kyo to decide where they would go, so he had chosen a small traditional restaurant that they frequented during breaks on practice days, since it was just down the street.
After being greeted and seated, they placed their usual order. The young woman smiled and nodded along, jotted down the requests, then headed off once they were finished. The place was very simple with rice paper dividers, low tables, and waitresses wearing plain but decorative kimono. Shinya had always been slightly wary of the place when they came, the girls a bit too flirty with the tall redhead for his liking.
The two had actually been together since their early days but Shinya would never admit to being the jealous type. Kyo had actually been the one to get them together in the first place. Back in La: Sadies when Die had joined Shinya and Kyo, Die had immediately developed a crush on the effeminate one. The thing is, Die had believed Shinya to be female because of the way he naturally looked and acted. The redhead had never been involved with a man, though he was far from closed minded to it, and things became quite awkward after that. So Kyo had decided to take it upon himself to get things settled between them, and they've been together since.
Kaoru raised an eyebrow and watched silently as Kyo occupied himself by playing with his chopsticks, walking them over the table and whatever may lay on top. "Umm..Kyo? What the hell are you doing?"
Kyo's eyes flicked up to the ones across from him, stopping all motion and remaining completely still. The only response given was a slight questioning grunt.
Kaoru stared at him for a moment, he looked kind of evil.. but in a cluelessly retarded way. "...You're weird, you know that?" a smile broke to his face as the blonde grinned and nodded enthusiastically. Kaoru was about to make another comment but was suddenly stopped by a steaming bowl of misou soup.
Kaoru couldn’t help but gawk at how Kyo just rammed right through any food he could find on his side of the table. Of course he really hadn't had a decent meal in almost a week, between the concerts and hospital stay. But it was still a slightly unsettling sight nonetheless. "So, what do ya say when we're finished here, we go to your place and.." he let the sentence hang, raising an eyebrow in a suggestive manner. "..go through your stuff?" ending his sentence with a flick of his tongue that never seemed to keep where it belonged. Kyo stopped mid munch to stare at the guitarist, and as he dropped one chopstick, he threw the other at the man's face. "Fine. I'm done anyway." He said, stretching backwards. Kaoru nodded and waved the waitress over so he could pay.
Once they left the restaurant, they were back in the car and on their way to Kyo's house. Kyo was in quite an odd mood and was singing along to anything that came across the radio, even, much to Kaoru's distaste, Morning Musume. "Though you are a vocalist, it worries me that you know most of these songs." Kaoru commented as he turned the corner to Kyo's street, a commercial ranting away.
Kyo stared, as if thinking but only for a second then blurted out as if one word "Shinya's fault."
Kaoru sighed and shook his head in slight amusement as they pulled up into the driveway. Right when the car settled down, Kyo hopped out to unlock the door, and disappeared inside. Kaoru ignored it and after turning everything off, he followed.
Even after all the times of being inside the small house, he still imagined it to be a complete mess. Kyo just seemed the type to be too busy sleeping to actually clean, but it was almost spotless, he was just too busy sleeping to make said mess in the first place. It somehow fit him though. He found Kyo in his room, feeding and playfully taunting his rats as they scurried like bullets through the cage. Kyo patted their heads with his finger before standing and turning to the purple haired guitarist.
Kaoru smiled at him and nodded to the room they were currently in. "We really should get started.." he said, walking more into the middle of the room and made a gesture as if asking if Kyo minded him touching his stuff. When Kyo shook his head, Kaoru went out to get boxes from his car.
After more than 2 hours they were almost finished, with only the living room left, which was good because Kaoru's car was nearing internal combustion. Kyo slowed though when he came to a shelf of photos. Scattered across the shelf were various sized frames of his band and close friends. His mind went through the memories of each captured moment as they were placed carefully into a small box. But as he came to one picture of his family, the only one he had of his own, he stopped.
Kaoru was at the other side of the room taping his last box when he heard the slow cracking of glass. Turning, he saw Kyo wasn’t really moving much and walked over to him. "Kyo, you okay?" he asked, placing a hand on his shoulder. Kyo didn't say anything but Kaoru could feel the tension. He knelt down next to the blonde and as he did, he saw the frame Kyo was holding, his fingers clenched the so tight that the glass was cracked in spiderwebs. As small drops of blood began to fall, so did a few tears.
Yanking the frame away, and thanking all gods he didn’t cause more damage in his haste, Kaoru pushed the box away and got down onto his knees in front of Kyo. "Kyo?!" He called in a slightly raised voice. Kyo looked at him, but said nothing, a few wet trails still there.
Kaoru looked down at the slightly larger hands, holding them carefully palm up, examining the wounded fingertips. Looking back to Kyo, he stood. "Let's get you fixed up, okay?" At first Kyo didn’t react but when he could tell Kaoru had already gone to the kitchen, he stood and soon joined.
In the kitchen Kaoru had already pulled some supplies from the case they had left inside just incase. Kaoru looked at Kyo, motioning him over. The blonde man walked over slowly, his eyes set on the various items placed on the counter. Kaoru remained silent as he carefully took the other's hands, moving them to hover over the sink. Kyo barely reacted at all as his friend disinfected and dressed his fingers. He just stood quietly, watching.
When finished with putting everything back into the case, Kaoru looked at Kyo who still hadn’t moved. He watched him closely, the man in front of him looked so dead already, in another way though. Without breaking the calm silence, he lifted a hand softly to the other's cheek. He wanted so much to help Kyo in any way possible, and he wanted it to be known. Kyo leaned slightly to the hand but nothing more, his eyes cast downward as if in a trance of thought.
Kaoru watched him quietly for a moment before leaning in, placing a light kiss on the vocalists lips. Kyo didn’t do anything, didn’t even flinch, he just continued to stare blankly down. Kaoru pulled away slightly and scanned over his face before kissing him again, only deeper. This time Kyo responded, his eyes dropped shut and he pressed against the kiss, lips parting slightly. Kaoru was surprised at the cooperation but didn’t want it to end. His tongue snaked its way past those lips, messaging softly against Kyo's.
Kyo's hands came up to grip Kaoru's belt loops, and ignoring the slight sting he pulled the taller one tightly against him as he suckled at the invading tongue. He boldly grinded their crotches together, his mind lost with what was going on. Kaoru gasped slightly at the sudden move but gladly returned it, pressing Kyo against the counter with his hips. The slightly taller man leaned Kyo back until he was bracing himself on the tiling with his elbows, fingers still tightly hooked in the straps.
Kaoru's lips lefts Kyo's slightly swollen ones to kiss a light trail to his neck, nipping at the skin along it. He was slightly wary to how accepting Kyo was being, but shrugged it off not wanting to ruin the moment. Kyo let go of him and pulled himself up to sit on the edge of the counter, legs parting to be at either side of the other man. Kaoru's hands came up to rest at Kyo's thighs when Kyo's came up to wrap over his shoulders. His fingers tracing small designs along the inside and up near his slightly bulged crotch.
Kyo whimpered when as felt Kaoru's nails drag over the front of his jeans, hips pressing to the feeling in want. The purple haired man grinned against Kyo's neck as he bit down, the spot being sensitive causing Kyo to moan loudly. Kaoru's fingers worked to undo Kyo's pants opening them and pulling him free, one hand stroking over the head with his palm. Kyo leaned back against the wall behind him, lips parted though nothing but silent pants escaped.
Kaoru watched him for a moment, slowly pumping while watching his lust filled reactions. Smiling slightly, he leaned down and wrapped his lips over the tip, gently teasing it with his tongue. When his hands had succeeded in pulling the pants down further to mid thigh he brought one back up to cradle Kyo's balls as his mouth took in the entire length, his other hand going to Kyo's waist holding him down. He would sometimes pull away and blow across it and give long licks along the shaft, like it was his own little Kyocicle, and he loved the flavor. The hand at his sack messaging gently, coaxing him further.
Kyo was too lost to think at all anymore, not that he could before. He let out long low moans as Kaoru worked, giving him so much pleasure. He had actually never been with a man before, but at the moment he couldn't really give a damn, it felt too good to stop. With all the women he had shared beds with, he had never had this kind of feeling run through him. He didn't know how to place it but it couldn’t have just been the feel of Kaoru's tongue on him. No. Something different. He didn’t want to think about stuff like that though, not right now. So after a while of moans and unsuccessful thrusts he let his head fall back and came deep into the older man's throat.
Kaoru had to hold the blonde down with both hands as he began to reach his orgasm, his thrusts becoming more insistent. But when he finally came, let go allowing him to thrust himself all the way in, sending the thick liquid down his throat. Kaoru had almost gagged from the force but was able to settle himself and pulled off, swallowing what would be left on his tongue. He kissed the head and looked up at Kyo who was still recovering from the experience. He actually thought that this would have been Kyo's first time with a guy, but it didn’t seem like it, maybe the other man just never felt right to mentioned it.
"Kyo.." he whispered as he leaned forward to place another kiss on the mans lips. Kyo looked up at him with glazed eyes and sat up shakily to kiss him deeply, arms going around his neck pulling him closer. Kaoru was again surprised but leaned into it, kissing him back passionately as he undid his own zipper and pulled himself out. Kyo didn’t hesitate one bit and just leans back again, pulling Kaoru to lean over him with the kiss. Kaoru tugged Kyo's pants down lower to bunch around his ankles and as he did he pulled from the kiss, leaning against Kyo's ear. "Aishiteru.. Kyo.."
'Aishiteru..?' Kyo's mind was trying to process this word, his mind was still hazed and it wasn't one he was accustomed to. He tried hard to keep on track with his thoughts as he kissed at Kaoru's neck. Kaoru nuzzled into Kyo's shoulder as he messaged a finger around the entrance. 'he.. loves me..?' Kyo still didn’t quite grasp the concept, but was brought from his thoughts when he felt something enter him. Suddenly he shot up, causing the finger to slip out and he looked at Kaoru with wide eyes.
Kaoru stared up at him, confused. "Kyo..? Did I hurt you? I'm sorry." Kaoru leaned up to try kissing him in apology but was pushed away with enough force to knock him against the opposite counter. Immediately he knew he had done something wrong, but he couldn't react, it was suddenly going too fast.
Kyo didn’t move after he had pushed him away, he just stared, panting. Looking down he saw himself, he quickly jumped down and rushed in pulling his pants up and as he fastened them he whispered something repeatedly. "I..I'm not a fag.. I'm no faggot...FUCK!" Kyo looked around as if lost and then at Kaoru, who looked completely crushed holding himself up against the counter. "I'm not.. a faggot..." with tears already forming in the corners of his eyes, Kyo darted out of the room.
Kaoru too shocked to move, jumped when Kyo had ran. He quickly pushed himself back into his pants, ignoring the extreme discomfort and ran after him but was too late when the front door was slammed right before he could get to it. Out of frustration he punched it. He noticed a window right beside him and quickly parted two blinds and looked out to make sure Kyo hadn't left completely, and was relieved to see Kyo had gone straight into the car. Luckily he still had his keys with him so Kyo couldn’t really go anywhere. But now what would he do? Kyo probably hated him.
Was he going to fast? Had he hurt him somehow? He was sure that Kyo was enjoying it, he couldn’t help himself. Looking down he sighed in defeat, and taking one last glance at Kyo through the glass, he turned around and headed into the bathroom, figuring it would be worse on many levels to get into the car with a full hard-on.