case of the mondays
i need to post this before i forget. it is from last friday or saturday. i think saturday. if you want to bypass to new stuff (although this is pretty new) you can go down to the broken line.
so, i just now left the wellness house. i kinda got kicked out of the wellness house. some guys are just jealous of some other guys. i suppose it happens. ill start where it starts. i went over to the wellness house because i was feeling kinda down about the whole no love thing. i was going over there to have a couple bud lights or a shot or two. that part went pretty well. the part that didnt was after everyone decided to go to bed. i decided to go up to the room of really the only girl that was there, holly, and kick it with her for a little while longer. the guys (at least three of them) did not enjoy this idea. i was in the room of the only girl at the party, and ive kinda been in the group the least amount of time. now i knew that i wasnt going to make a move on her. she has a boyfriend and she isnt what im looking for right now. however the guys didnt know this. they figured, hey theres two drunk people who are going to make some dumb decisions and regret it in the morning. well, first off, i am not like that. i do not take advantage of drunk chicks. secondly, she was wearing down by the time that she got back to her room. i did not try to make a single move on her. i respected her too much as a person and as a human being to disrespect her, which is more than i can say about some prejudice, mal-assuming people that live in wellness. so, I guess what im trying to say is thanks dad for kicking me out of the house. i didnt even do anything wrong. and the best part was in the stair well when they were talking to me about not knowing me for very long and they just assumed the worst until they get to know me a little better. maybe i can eventually earn their trust. and maybe if im good enough the whole year, I can finally get a pony for christmas. whatever. i know that they were jealous that I was the one in her room instead of them. i have more charm, more wit, more lots of things than they do. im not saying that they dont have a lot of good things going for them, but I have good aspects too. one of which is that I am a trustworthy guy who does flirt, but will not cross the line for any reason. i know my boundaries. i know when to and when not to cross them. i know that if you dont know me, i may come off somewhat arrogant or suave or even as a player, but i know when to stop acting and when to be deeper. i am deeper than just what i show at the picnic table. you may not know that because you havent cared to look deeper than that. i was good for a laugh or two here and there, but you had basically written me off as nothing more than a random guy until i infringed on *your* girl. there was no infringement. there wouldnt have been all night had we been left alone all night. if you dont trust me and dont respect me enough to take that chance, i dont know if you are a true enough friend for me. had you gotten to know me before hand and understood me as a person, you would not have had a problem anywhere near this one, and also you might have understood me. instead, you kicked me out like a piece of shit. thanks. that feels great. you treated me like crap and dont care. youre probably celebrating that i am not there with her anymore. whatever. that is pretty juvenile, kicking someone out of a college dorm. I am 19 years old, and in college. i can make my own decisions. so can she. we werent going to do anything. why is that so hard to grasp? i wish you hadnt gotten so jealous or antsy or whatever you want to call it. it was completely innocent. it hurts to know that i am thought of in the worst way by you. you did not give me a chance. you immediately judged me, gave me a label, and cast me aside. that really sucks. i am quite hurt right now. i thought this would be a worthwhile group of friends to hang out with this year, but now you have to earn my respect and trust just as much if not more than what i have on my agenda. wow. what else can I say except for thanks a lot. i feel wonderful. Now i know where i stand.
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i think i wrote some pretty good advice to jessica about cody. i hope she knows i have the best of intentions. its cool. i still cant really get her out of my head. that kinda sucks. oh well.
my mom met cheer jess. i wonder how that went. i should call her tomorrow. well see.
i went to the ky state fair. that was pretty good. i took cassie. while we were in the east wing looking at all the cool stuff, it started pouring. so we couldnt really go to the midway or see any of the games or anything. that kinda sucked. still, i was glad i went and that i took cassie. i think she enjoyed it. she was definately sad that we didnt go to the ride part. oh well, it will be back again next year.
cheerleaders also performed at the fair. that was cool. jason did the bird, so i didnt have to. still, fun to see.
i have a stuffy nose and a headache. although the headache is starting to go away. darned allergies. it kinda sucks.
had an l-raisers meeting. i kicked it off with a cards cheer. that was good. some good talking and it looks like it will be a pretty strong group. well see that, too.
jen is okay. she is in baton rouge, la. i wonder how her house in nawlins is. im just glad to hear that she is fine. and has such a strong bladder.
lauren is overwhelmed to some extent. she said the work load is nuts and she is stressed. i talked to her a little and tried to help. i think it worked. hope shes enjoying her second week of college.
rachael is back. yay. i did think about you. i was waiting for you to update to say much to you, but im glad to hear that you are doing okayish. youre feeling kinda lonely, too, huh? well, im here. im excited to talk to you again. thank you for thinking about me too.
i dont know whats up. i am just kinda out of it still. i look around and if i see a girl, she isnt jessica. im not trying to make you feel bad or anything of that sort. this is me getting my feelings out more than anything. anyways, the girls i see are not as impressive, they seem like imposters. like i would be lying if i dated someone. its weird. ive never felt this. im stuck on her. hmmm. i guess well see what happens.
i think im done writing for tonight. i know you are done reading this for tonight. i think ill go to bed. hopefully ill be better tomorrow morning. sweet dreams everyone. peaces,
-2t_e
final thought: the same thing ive been thinking about for the past few days.
so, i just now left the wellness house. i kinda got kicked out of the wellness house. some guys are just jealous of some other guys. i suppose it happens. ill start where it starts. i went over to the wellness house because i was feeling kinda down about the whole no love thing. i was going over there to have a couple bud lights or a shot or two. that part went pretty well. the part that didnt was after everyone decided to go to bed. i decided to go up to the room of really the only girl that was there, holly, and kick it with her for a little while longer. the guys (at least three of them) did not enjoy this idea. i was in the room of the only girl at the party, and ive kinda been in the group the least amount of time. now i knew that i wasnt going to make a move on her. she has a boyfriend and she isnt what im looking for right now. however the guys didnt know this. they figured, hey theres two drunk people who are going to make some dumb decisions and regret it in the morning. well, first off, i am not like that. i do not take advantage of drunk chicks. secondly, she was wearing down by the time that she got back to her room. i did not try to make a single move on her. i respected her too much as a person and as a human being to disrespect her, which is more than i can say about some prejudice, mal-assuming people that live in wellness. so, I guess what im trying to say is thanks dad for kicking me out of the house. i didnt even do anything wrong. and the best part was in the stair well when they were talking to me about not knowing me for very long and they just assumed the worst until they get to know me a little better. maybe i can eventually earn their trust. and maybe if im good enough the whole year, I can finally get a pony for christmas. whatever. i know that they were jealous that I was the one in her room instead of them. i have more charm, more wit, more lots of things than they do. im not saying that they dont have a lot of good things going for them, but I have good aspects too. one of which is that I am a trustworthy guy who does flirt, but will not cross the line for any reason. i know my boundaries. i know when to and when not to cross them. i know that if you dont know me, i may come off somewhat arrogant or suave or even as a player, but i know when to stop acting and when to be deeper. i am deeper than just what i show at the picnic table. you may not know that because you havent cared to look deeper than that. i was good for a laugh or two here and there, but you had basically written me off as nothing more than a random guy until i infringed on *your* girl. there was no infringement. there wouldnt have been all night had we been left alone all night. if you dont trust me and dont respect me enough to take that chance, i dont know if you are a true enough friend for me. had you gotten to know me before hand and understood me as a person, you would not have had a problem anywhere near this one, and also you might have understood me. instead, you kicked me out like a piece of shit. thanks. that feels great. you treated me like crap and dont care. youre probably celebrating that i am not there with her anymore. whatever. that is pretty juvenile, kicking someone out of a college dorm. I am 19 years old, and in college. i can make my own decisions. so can she. we werent going to do anything. why is that so hard to grasp? i wish you hadnt gotten so jealous or antsy or whatever you want to call it. it was completely innocent. it hurts to know that i am thought of in the worst way by you. you did not give me a chance. you immediately judged me, gave me a label, and cast me aside. that really sucks. i am quite hurt right now. i thought this would be a worthwhile group of friends to hang out with this year, but now you have to earn my respect and trust just as much if not more than what i have on my agenda. wow. what else can I say except for thanks a lot. i feel wonderful. Now i know where i stand.
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i think i wrote some pretty good advice to jessica about cody. i hope she knows i have the best of intentions. its cool. i still cant really get her out of my head. that kinda sucks. oh well.
my mom met cheer jess. i wonder how that went. i should call her tomorrow. well see.
i went to the ky state fair. that was pretty good. i took cassie. while we were in the east wing looking at all the cool stuff, it started pouring. so we couldnt really go to the midway or see any of the games or anything. that kinda sucked. still, i was glad i went and that i took cassie. i think she enjoyed it. she was definately sad that we didnt go to the ride part. oh well, it will be back again next year.
cheerleaders also performed at the fair. that was cool. jason did the bird, so i didnt have to. still, fun to see.
i have a stuffy nose and a headache. although the headache is starting to go away. darned allergies. it kinda sucks.
had an l-raisers meeting. i kicked it off with a cards cheer. that was good. some good talking and it looks like it will be a pretty strong group. well see that, too.
jen is okay. she is in baton rouge, la. i wonder how her house in nawlins is. im just glad to hear that she is fine. and has such a strong bladder.
lauren is overwhelmed to some extent. she said the work load is nuts and she is stressed. i talked to her a little and tried to help. i think it worked. hope shes enjoying her second week of college.
rachael is back. yay. i did think about you. i was waiting for you to update to say much to you, but im glad to hear that you are doing okayish. youre feeling kinda lonely, too, huh? well, im here. im excited to talk to you again. thank you for thinking about me too.
i dont know whats up. i am just kinda out of it still. i look around and if i see a girl, she isnt jessica. im not trying to make you feel bad or anything of that sort. this is me getting my feelings out more than anything. anyways, the girls i see are not as impressive, they seem like imposters. like i would be lying if i dated someone. its weird. ive never felt this. im stuck on her. hmmm. i guess well see what happens.
i think im done writing for tonight. i know you are done reading this for tonight. i think ill go to bed. hopefully ill be better tomorrow morning. sweet dreams everyone. peaces,
-2t_e
final thought: the same thing ive been thinking about for the past few days.