LittleMsNeverBLoved
Having one of those days where no matter how much I have to do and how busy I get, I can't keep myself distracted from the pity-party my heart is experiencing right now.
Job worked out the way I wanted. Now I can, theoretically, take night courses and get back into the school thing.
I get to move into a nice house, and possibly buy it.
But it will still be empty.
Intensely insulted last night by my little brother, when he not only insinuated, but point blank stated that I couldn't handle taking care of his 6 month old daughter for a week.
I hate the fact that he's so much like my father that he thinks he can look down on me and get away with it the way our father has. I sincerely hope that he grows up and learns to relate to his daughter as a person instead of being the chauvenistic arse of a father that I dealt with. I'm tired of being in the shadow of noses, especially those in my family. So I don't have a family of my own? Maybe I've never had anything close to a serious long-term relationship. But when I DO... I won't be counting pennies in order to buy diapers.
I only wish I had the conviction and confidence to put behind that belief. It's hard when you were raised that happiness is so much more important than money. I'm financially stable, but I'm miserable... and my conscience can't be fought into happiness on this matter, it seems.
Job worked out the way I wanted. Now I can, theoretically, take night courses and get back into the school thing.
I get to move into a nice house, and possibly buy it.
But it will still be empty.
Intensely insulted last night by my little brother, when he not only insinuated, but point blank stated that I couldn't handle taking care of his 6 month old daughter for a week.
I hate the fact that he's so much like my father that he thinks he can look down on me and get away with it the way our father has. I sincerely hope that he grows up and learns to relate to his daughter as a person instead of being the chauvenistic arse of a father that I dealt with. I'm tired of being in the shadow of noses, especially those in my family. So I don't have a family of my own? Maybe I've never had anything close to a serious long-term relationship. But when I DO... I won't be counting pennies in order to buy diapers.
I only wish I had the conviction and confidence to put behind that belief. It's hard when you were raised that happiness is so much more important than money. I'm financially stable, but I'm miserable... and my conscience can't be fought into happiness on this matter, it seems.