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Don't mind me... I'm just a silly girl. I can't be worth anything. Too emotional and demanding to be anymore than tolerated.
It's sad... some of my friends are telling me to hold on, stick around. I just don't know if I can. I know being in his life right now is just pulling him down and stressing him out more. Not to mention what it's doing to me.
Everytime I think of him, there is nothing but saddness. A sense of emminent loss.
How can you love someone so much, and still know that you have to let them go. I know he will never find the confidence in himself that he needs unless he ventures through life alone for a while.
In a conversation about a week ago, James told me "Ark is an Ass." I responded, "No, just lost at sea." It's sad that he can't utilize the lighthouse that I've allowed myself to represent for the last several years.
yet... maybe it's time for me to pull up the roots and move on. I have to allow myself to evolve. It's time for me to find my own happiness... and this time, i have to find it within myself. I've come to accept that any outside happiness I find is doomed to walk back out of my life.
It's sad... some of my friends are telling me to hold on, stick around. I just don't know if I can. I know being in his life right now is just pulling him down and stressing him out more. Not to mention what it's doing to me.
Everytime I think of him, there is nothing but saddness. A sense of emminent loss.
How can you love someone so much, and still know that you have to let them go. I know he will never find the confidence in himself that he needs unless he ventures through life alone for a while.
In a conversation about a week ago, James told me "Ark is an Ass." I responded, "No, just lost at sea." It's sad that he can't utilize the lighthouse that I've allowed myself to represent for the last several years.
yet... maybe it's time for me to pull up the roots and move on. I have to allow myself to evolve. It's time for me to find my own happiness... and this time, i have to find it within myself. I've come to accept that any outside happiness I find is doomed to walk back out of my life.