kara is numb

[2shades_pink]

i guess im over the pain.
i feel numb, more of.

i stole this from bea. love it.

I need to cry
I need to stop crying

I need to smile
I need to stop smiling because of you

I need to be strong
I need to stop getting strength from you

I need to live life
I need to stop living life with you

I need to run away
I need to stop running towards you

I need to dream
I need to stop dreaming of you

I need to fight
I need to stop fighting for you

I need to want more
I need to stop wanting more of you

I need to move on...
I need to.

I need to stop...
Stop being in love with you

I love you and you know that
I love you and you know I did my best to show it

I love you and you know I gave it all
I love you and you know ill give more

I love you and you know ill stay
But I love you...
And I know I can’t...

So, ill walk this off
Ill walk away
As soon as I can

Ill run if I have to
Ill run if I have enough strength to

I hate the love I still have for you
I hate the hope I’m holding on to.

I hate the pain you’ve caused
I have the scars it will leave

I hate the trust I gave you
Even more that you broke it.

I hate your guts
I hate my weakness
I hate the sacrifices
I hate the strength I get from you

I hate the longing
I hate the guilt
I hate the agony
I hate the tears
I hate the memories
I hate the tears!

I hate the life I yearn to live
I hate living without you
I hate that I have to

I hate the way I love you
I hate the way I want you despite it all

I hate the way this is so hard for me
I hate the way it’s so easy for you

I hate the way everything reminds me of you
I hate the way I hate all those wonderful things

I hate the way you sing to me
I hate the way I fall for you
I hate the way I think of you
And dream of you

I hate the way I’m so attached
I hate the way I cry over you
I hate the way I smile because of you

I hate the way we fell in love
I hate it more that we fell apart

I hate the way I have to do this
I hate it that i'm moving on

I hate you for making me love without limit
I hate you for making me give all of me without reservations

I hate you for making me cry tears of love, joy and pain
I hate you for leaving me again and again

I hate you for making me vulnerable
I hate you for making me strong
I hate you for making me numb

I hate you for making me feel safe and needed
I hate you for making me feel more alone and destitute

I hate you for making me wait
I hate you for making me hold on

I hate you for making me do this...
I hate that I have to move on.