Catch my heart [or just catch me]
Title: Catch my heart, or just catch me
Pairing: Taecyeon/Junsu
Genre: romance, fluff, smut
Words: 4,765
Rating: NC-17
Summary: How their awkward relationship turned into love.
A/N: had been working on this for months now. and collab with my bb emorevival ^^
“You guys are so awkward.”
Junsu stopped dead in his tracks, Taec choked on his coffee a bit.
“Excuse me?” Taec said, wiping stale coffee off his mouth.
Junsu gulped and attempted to walk away quietly but Taec had walked over to him and slung his arms around his shoulders. They faced the couple on the couch. “Me and Junsu are like brothers okay, we are tight.” He shook Junsu’s shoulders,while the other giving away an unnoticed hurt smile.
Quickly shoving the hand away and forcing a chuckle, Junsu entered the room and sat on the chair to shove Junho’s words out of his mind. Soon,a loud bam from the door was heard when Taecyeon entered the room. The older could only hope that he won’t listen to his throbbing heart that could just burst anytime,
“We aren’t awkward?” Junsu asked him from his desk.
“Of course we’re not.” Taec replied bluntly, tapping the keyboard of his laptop.
Junsu cleared his throat and stared forward to his blank half written paper, the lyrics about heartbroken love and such being cut short. He sighed and tapped his pencil on the table, with random beats hoping for an inspiration. He turned around on his chair, staring at Taecyeon. The taller eventually catches him and raises an eyebrow. “What?”
“Nothing. Trying to find ideas…”
“And staring at me will help?”
“Shut up. I have my own writing methods.”
Junsu blushed and turned back to his desk. Taecyeon chuckled, Junsu swore he heard him say “You are so cute sometimes.” But he kept quiet. 5 minutes, 10 minutes and 20 minutes passed away with a complete silence in the room, until Taecyeon stood and walking toward Junsu,”let’s see what you got here”,Taecyeon tried to take a look when his hand accidentally touched Junsu, and older man quickly stood up in startle. Taecyeon gave him a confused look and Junsu was dead speechless of his surprised action.
“Sorry”, the younger one said
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“Okay, so we are awkward.” Taecyeon admitted to Nichkhun one morning, “But we’ll fix that right, Junsu?” He reached forward from his position on the couch to ruffle Junsu’s hair. The older turned back from the TV, frowning confusingly. “What do you mean?”
“Let’s go out for coffee or something, we’ll talk things through.” Taec stated. “Like a date.” Junho added to his speech. Junsu blushed and smacked his Junbrother on the head, his embarrassment led to him attacking Junho. “Shut up, you brat.” Junsu continued to pinch the squealing boy’s sides until he begged for mercy and apologized. Taecyeon and Nichkhun just chuckling at the side.
“Honestly,” Junsu sipped on his latte. “I’m fine with being awkward..” Taec made a face, an unbelievable one. “Are you serious? We’re roommates, we’re supposed to be close.” Taec said , lolling his drink around.
“But what if I say..” Junsu bit his lip, pausing for a second. “I would be too close.”
“What does that mean?”
“As in ‘liking’ someone.”
“You mean..”
“I like you.”
Taec’s jaw dropped open, his drink being placed on the table before it slips,“Now see this is why I was alright with being awkward all the time.” Junsu said, looking away. Taec was still silent, then everything clicked to him, why Junsu avoids standing to close to him, or being alone together, except at night, when they needed to sleep. Junsu was always conservative about himself.
Junsu stood up “Let’s just go home..”
The atmosphere was so revolting between them on the way home that Junsu felt his chest tightened too much, so suffocating. Neither of the two said anything nor did they look at each other. Junsu stared at the younger’s footsteps who walked in front of him in the snow, though every once in a while his eyes would stick to Taecyeon’s right hand. I wonder would my hand fit those spaces between his fingers? But he quickly averted his gaze when Taec’s shocked face came in mind.
When the two of them reached at the dorm, none of the member got the guts to say a word about the suffocating atmosphere between the lead singer and the rapper.
The room was nearly a pitch dark with only the moonlight from behind the curtain when Taecyeon came. I suppose he’s asleep, or so he thought. Taecyeon tried to bring himself to sleep with his hyung’s confession resounding in his mind. He would turn his body to right, left and adjusted his legs to finally get a comfortable sleep position but the try came to no avail, especially not while the certain person above him kept on moving and making noises
“Hey, Junsu”
“.............”, no answer.
“Junsu-hyung”
“Come on, i know you’re not asleep yet”
“What do you want ?”
“I’m,uhm,..”
“Look, if it’s about the confession earlier, just forget it”
Taecyeon climbed on the bunk bed, "Come here”, he gestured, still standing on the ladder, Junsu sat and adjust himself so that he was sitting closer near Taecyeon, "Are you sure you want me to forget that?"
The older man averted his gaze away.
“Because i’m considering about... going out with you”
His jaw dropped open.
“I might not fancy men to begin with, but if it’s with you, i feel like it’s okay, and I really wanna do something about this awkward thing ... Ugh,come on, put that ridiculous face away, I’m dead serious”
Junsu blinked and sighed.
“You should reconsider. You’re right, you don’t even fancy men to begin with, this isn’t as simple as you think”, Junsu patted Taecyeon’s head,”We can think about something else to fix this awkwardness."
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Those awkward days slowly began to change with Junsu’s effort to act as normal as he could near his crush. Knowing this, a feeling of wanting to tease the older man grew within Taec. At first Taecyeon would be a little flirty, and Junsu trying to be a cold-headed he was, would convert the conversation to some jokes, which then he would laugh at in force and Taecyeon being a great player he was, would gave the older man a small charming smile. It couldn’t help the butterflies in the stomach flew higher and Junsu lost track of his own heartbeat.
“Good morning.” Taecyeon whispered behind him. Junsu jumped abruptly, causing his forehead to hit the upper cupboard with a loud thunk. He quickly put down his coffee and patted his forehead, squinting painfully. “Owww..” He was still groggy and the pain did not help.
Taecyeon was concerned. “I’m sorry.” He said, flipped Junsu around and cupped his face, sure enough there was a red blotch on the side of his forehead. Taec rubbed that spot gently and blew on it. Blood rushed to Junsu’s face, he squirmed. “Um, it’s okay.”
Taec noticed that the older was blushing and smirked, He leaned closer and Junsu’s eyes went wide, he leaned back. His back eventually pressed to the counter, Taec’s smile never leaving his face. Junsu shut his eyes and curled back. He felt Taec kissing his forehead and heard his chuckle. He opened his eyes to see a grinning Taecyeon walking out of the kitchen, saying “Thanks for the coffee.” Junsu turned around only to see an empty counter, his coffee gone. He sighed and reached up for the sugar, planning to make a new one.
“Coffee thief.”
Taec’s smiled, quickly getting back to their room and started to type random key words on google. Somehow thousands of questions began to pop out on Taec’s mind, Junsu is so cute blushing like that. If i hold his fingers tightly, how would he react ? if i pull his waist and hug him him close, would he gasp ? if i bite his lips, would he shiver and try to run away ? if i lick his skin, would he moan my name? when he finally came to his senses, he quickly shook his head in confusion and gaped at what he typed.
Ok Taecyeon Kim Junsu
He stood up and slammed the desk. What the fuck is happening to me?
He was falling in love.
With Junsu.
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Their first kiss was somehow awkwardly sweet. Junsu was on his usual spot at the desk, scribbling some lyrics for a song. He was feeling a little frustrated, the ideas were not coming on well. He rested his on the desk, closing his eyes and sighing. Suddenly, a warm hand palming the top of his head made him lift his head up, eyes meeting a smiling Taecyeon.
“They’re playing a movie in front. Wanna join?”
Junsu nodded bleakly as Taecyeon dragged him out of the room to the living room, where the others were huddled on the floor like little girls at a sleepover. “Why don’t you guys sit on the couch?” Junsu questioned, sending a funny look at Nichkhun. “Taec reserved it, that greedy ass.” Junsu raised his eyebrows and looked Taecyeon, who just grinned in response.
Taec taller sat on the couch and gestured Junsu to him, who seemed hesitant. Taec rolled his eyes and pulled him down beside him. Junsu squirmed when Taec put an arm around his shoulder; he was not used to this. “You’re giving me too much hope you know…” he whispered, Taec just smiled at him and slid his arm lower, winding it around Junsu’s waist, making him gasp. “Then just take it.”
Junsu was surprised at his choice of words and turned his head, slightly brushing his lips to Taecyeon’s. The contact shocked him and he would have jumped away but Taec’s arm kept him in place. Taecyeon stared at the wide-eyed Junsu who was so close to him, something about the way his body shivered when he caressed his back made him feel content. He leaned his face closer, until Junsu had shut his eyes from embarrassment. Taecyeon pressed his lips gently to Junsu’s, his mind went blank for a second as he thought that Junsu’s lips were as soft as he had imagined. He stayed like that for a moment before pulling back, immediately smiling at a bewildered-looking Junsu who was blushing a thousand shades of red. “Now stay put and watch the movie."
Junsu had written tons of sickeningly sweet love songs that night.
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Taec did a lot of thinking after the night he kissed Junsu. He was surprisingly calm after that, enjoying the movie with his arm around Junsu. He felt a warm tingly feeling the whole night and it made him feel good. Taecyeon felt weird too.
How can I like him that fast? But he's so cute. Is my feelings real? His reactions are adorable. Am I being honest? He's so beautiful. How did I miss all this? I want to touch him. He likes me, but should I? I want him.
Taec had developed multiple new habits. He was more playful towards Junsu. Plus he was more affectionate with him. He'd watch out for the older. Maybe even getting a little jealous over his close brotherly bond with Junho and close friendship with Nichkhun. He'd unconsciously touch him more too, and found himself wanting more than that. He'd even occasionally kiss Junsu in a domestic way like on the cheek or forehead. The older would just shiver a little and smile up at him, which made him want to embrace the singer.
Junsu of course noticed Taecyeon's advances towards him and was a little hesitant despite the butterflies in his stomach. So he had made Taecyeon agreed to boundaries, where they would slowly build up the relationship in case Taecyeon changed his mind, which the younger thought was impossible, since Kim Junsu had plastered himself to his mind 24/7.
So Taecyeon was out to win him over permanently.
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"You know how you said we'd find another way to cure our awkwardness?"
"Y-yeah.."
“It worked out too well, didn’t it?” Taecyeon licked his neck, nipping slightly. Junsu shivered and nodded, gripping on Taec’s biceps as he accepted another kiss, this time Taec pried his lips apart with his tongue, seeking entrance. Junsu moaned to his mouth as their tongue battled for dominance. The kiss turned rougher when Taec won, pushing him harder against the wall. Junsu squeaked when Taec attempted to tug his shirt up.
“Y-You can’t.”
“And why not?”, Junsu let go of his arms and settled his hands on Taec’s chest. He grinned slightly, which made Taec pull a questioning look.
“Earn it.” ,Junsu said and slipped away from Taecyeon’s grip, out of their room. Taec was baffled for a second, but was turned on by his denying behavior.
Junsu slept at the living room with Chansung and Wooyoung that night, after a stare-war with Taecyeon, and of course he won. Leaving the giant all fired up on the floor for nothing. But Junsu woke up to a much softer ground the day after that, with a larger body close to him that he assumed was Chansung. That didn’t surprise him; the youngest always had a tendency to cuddle anyways. Junsu didn’t bother to open his eyes and sighed, planning to go back to sleep. Until he feels a face dipping to his neck, patches of sharp hair grazing his cheek. -Chan’s hair isn’t this short.- Junsu shot his eyes open and met with a blurry orange vision. He knew that colour too well. “Taecyeon?” as soon as he spoke up, the giant pulled away a few inches just to face Junsu. His face formed a known smirk as Junsu’s forehead creased. “How did I get here?” Junsu was well aware that they were in Taec’s bottom bunk, a little curious of how he managed to get here from the living room floor.
“I kidnapped you.”
“and why?”
“Because I wanted to.”
“Oh..” Junsu couldn’t help the blush tinting his cheeks.
“Just go back to sleep, it’s still early and we’re resting today.”
Taecyeon winded his arms around Junsu and pulled him to his chest. Junsu was totally stiff to the touch, even more so when Taecyeon moved his hand up and down his back. Junsu shut his eyes and buried his face to the crook if Taecyeon’s neck, hiding his deep blush. Taecyeon moved closer, pressed his nose to Junsu’s shoulder and breathed his scent. Neither of them could go back to sleep, not when this is the closest they had been physically, and somehow Taecyeon needed more.
Junsu’s heart jumped when Taecyeon pecked his shoulder, starting to trail kisses. His body immediately froze, “T-Taec,” he stuttered out and shivered when fingers slipped beneath his sleeveless shirt, tracing his bare back. “Relax. Stop, being, so, awkward, with, me.” Taecyeon spoke, each word deliberately accompanied by kisses on soft skin. His lips eventually stopped at Junsu’s cheek. He pulled away to look at Junsu, who was biting his lower lip. Taec leaned in and kissed it, before catching his lips into a soft kiss. Junsu tried his best to respond, but he couldn’t stop squirming when Taec’s hands went higher, his shirt riding up, exposing his stomach. Junsu grabbed Taec’s wrists, breaking the kiss and panting softly, “W-what about boundaries?”
“No need for that anymore.”
“What do you mean?”
“I’ll show you what I mean.”
Taecyeon hovered over him, staring right into those deep dark orbs that showed uncertainty. He smiled and kissed Junsu again, long and passionate. Junsu kissed back with as much love as he can. He wrapped his arms around Taec’s neck and tilted his head, opening his mouth as Taec’s tongue poked in, ravishing his taste. Their chests were pressed together and Taec could practically feel Junsu’s heart beating rapidly.
“Mhm Taec…” Junsu moaned quietly when Taec’s hand travelled up his thighs. He was now sucking on Junsu’s neck, enjoying the moans and whimpers he was making. Junsu gasped when Taec’s hand glided across his crotch, kneading his hips, his is other hand undoing the strings of Junsu’s sweatpants. Junsu pushes Taecyeon away “Are you sure about this?” he questioned, being a little nervous and hesitant. Taec simply nodded and pecked his cheek. “Don’t you think it’s too early? For t-this...” Junsu squeaked. Taec looked over at the clock. 7am. He smirked and turned back to Junsu, “But it’s too late to back out now...” Taec kissed his collarbone and nibbled on it “Just relax Su, I’ll make you feel better.” Junsu sighs as he blushes again. Suddenly his body was lifted up for a brief moment and the next thing he knew his shirt was gone. Taec stared at the rarely seen body in front of him, he licked his lips. It was absolutely beautiful. He palmed Junsu’s abs, going up his body, feeling the warm, soft skin shivering under his fingers.
Taecyeon pushed Junsu’s sweatpants down to his knees and used a finger to trace his waistline to his hipbone. Junsu was such a sensitive man he shivered uncontrollably, holding back moans. -He’s so easy to force goose bumps on...- Taec smiled on Junsu’s skin. The way the older squirmed and panted made himself turned on. Taec took his wifebeater off and pressed his lower body down. Junsu let out the loudest gasp when Taec’s erection made itself known, pressing to his inner thigh. Imagine how he was when Taec started grinding towards him.
“Ah..” Junsu managed out. Taec couldn’t take it, early or not, he needed this. The front of his pants was already wet. He leaned to Junsu and whispered to his ear, “I’ll stop if you want me too.” Junsu just closed his eyes and shook his head, hands gripping tightly on Taecyeon. The younger slipped his pants off and attacked Junsu’s lips, engaging in a rough kiss, distracting him of what’s to come. His legs being lifted up, the younger settling in between.
Junsu’s body jumped when he felt himself being stretched. He would have let out a huge scream if it wasn’t for Taecyeon blocking out with his own lips. Junsu curled his body as Taec slipped in inch by inch, until he was eventually fully sheathed inside the older. When Taec pulled away for air, Junsu hissed in pain, tears pooling in his eyes, he was panting heavily. “You okay?” Taec frowned a little, watching Junsu shut his eyes tight, holding his breath. “Should I stop?” Then Junsu shot his eyes open and shook his head frantically. “N-No! Please don’t stop…”
Taec took his hand and laced their fingers together. He gave Junsu a kiss and started to move his hips. Junsu groaned at the friction, still not used to being filled. “Nghh..Taec.” Junsu moaned as Taec’s speed increased. He felt the pain slowly fading and the pleasure coming in little by little. Taec on the other hand was lost in pleasure, by the way Junsu was clenching around him and the way he moaned, oh those sweet melodious moans. Taecyeon snapped his hips forward abruptly and was rewarded with a low whimper.
“Junsu-yah.” Taecyeon groaned. Junsu rocking back to him, his body was trembling, the pleasure coursing through him. The heated friction sent tremors through their bodies. Taec went faster and deeper. Junsu’s moans were muffled by his kisses; he was careful not to scratch Taec’s back and gripped on the blanket. Taecyeon felt the heat pool up in his abdomen, and the way Junsu clenched tighter around him signaled that he was close too. The younger changed angles and thrust hard into him, making Junsu moan the loudest, his sweet spot found. Taecyeon devoured his lips again as he rammed in a couple of times before releasing his load right into Junsu, the older came onto his stomach, letting out a deep sigh as he sank into the mattress. Taecyeon pulled out and laid beside his tired hyung, an arm draped on his waist. He was a little breathless so he closed his eyes and caught his breath.
“Taecyeon?” came Junsu’s shaky voice.
“Hmm?” he responded, opening his eyes to see a sheepish looking Junsu.
“You won’t regret this, r-right?”
God, he’s so vulnerable like this.Taecyeon wrapped his arms around Junsu’s waist and pulled him close. His kissed Junsu full on the lips, letting the older hug him back. “No I don’t. Not at all.” He said, grinning back at the smiling Junsu.
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Taecyeon woke up again at 12am. He left Junsu in bed, the older was still exhausted and he didn’t want to wake him up. So he put a shirt on and went out for some food. The other members were already up, Junho and Wooyoung were watching TV and Chansung was in the kitchen munching on bananas, as usual. Taec decided to cook ramyun as there was no other edible food around. As it was boiling, Nichkhun appeared in the kitchen with a bright almost sinister smile. “Well look who’s finally up!”
“Good morning to you too, Khun.”
“Junsu’s still sleeping.”
“So?"
"He's usually up by now.."
"and?"
He’s not wearing a shirt, that’s odd..”
“…Oh shit.” Taec forgot that Junsu never takes his shirt off unless he's showering.
“You did it didn’t you? I heard something this morning~”
“Well, maybe..um-”
“You had morning sex with Junsu!” Khun shouted in English.
“Shut up!!” Taec widened his eyes and covered Khun’s mouth.
“Okay okay, so you’re really hitting it off with him huh?”
Taec went back to stirring the ramyun, “I dunno, but I really like him, a lot.”
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It was after music bank, when Taec’s urge to touch him increased ten folds, the heat around him growing rapidly. Something was threatening to burst inside him.
“I’m really sorry we’re still awkward in public.”
“It’s okay. We don’t need to rush, Taec-ah.”
“T-Taec? Wait-“ Junsu was cut off with lips on his own.
Taec unzipped Junsu’s outfit and palmed his body through his wifebeater. Junsu moaned as the taller pushed him harder against the wall; his owns hands reaching down to palm the bulge in Taec’s pants, earning a deep groan. “Shit, Junsu.”
Junsu was on his knees, face to face with the obvious bulge. He carefully slipped Taec’s erection out and licked it softly. Taec shuddered at the brief contact and bit his lip “Hurry..” Junsu sucked on the tip and licked the underside, making the younger groan in response, all the blood rushing south and making him even harder. Taecyeon sighed and gripped on Junsu’s soft locks, the faster he sucked the more Taec loses his mind. He was careful not to buck his hips, not fond of choking the man. Junsu continued sucking Taec’s cock, until he was pulled up by strong hands and lips kissing him hungrily.
“Taec, we c-can’t do it here..” Junsu whispered as Taec kissed down his neck, licking at the soft skin. He gave Junsu’s chest a peck and kissed his forehead. “I know.” He ran a hand through Junsu’s hair and held him close. Junsu zipped up Taec’s pants and his own outfit.
“How come you were horny anyways?”
“I could see your butt from your low slung pants.”
“Pervert.”
“Hah, now pull it up. This ass is mine.”
Junsu yelped as Taecyeon groped him while they walked out of the storage room with Taec holding his hand. He wondered when to let go of it, because, aside the fact that they were in the public place, his heartbeat undeniably jumbled up in happiness.
“Hey, where have you guys been ?”, Minjae hyung asked while scratching his head, Junsu quickly pushed Taec’s hand away, “We have to get ready for the next schedule...,” he stopped for a while and scanned the two, “It’s so rare seeing you two walking together. You guys are less awkward now huh? That’s good.”
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Despite the fact about how busy they were and tiring schedules that day, Taecyeon quickly pulled the older man to their room or their sanctuary as defined by Taecyeon the place where he can fuck Junsu without bothering other members will intrude them. The only thing Junsu could ever read what was happening before he was pushed roughly to the wall was the sound of the door being locked, and Taec’s lips locked on his.
Taec broke the kiss,his hand reached to Junsu’s forming bulge,”This hard just by the kiss... how cute.”, Junsu blushed in a shade red, “Why did you let go off my hand earlier in Music Bank?” Taec questioned.
“Because I....ah!”, Taec’s hand were gripping so hard on Junsu’s erection behind the fabric, the older gritted his teeth while catching up with his irregular breathing, “I.. didn’t want Minjae hyung to f-find out..”
“About what? It’s not like we’re going out”, Taec said in sarcasm. Junsu’s heart instantly skipped a beat as if he was cut through by a razorblade. Taecyeon quickly read the wide-eyes stare and the overall shocked expression from the older’s face, which only made him want to tease the older more and more.
He proceeded unbuttoning Junsu’s shirt while giving him a rough, lustful kiss and lifted him up, finally a soft surface.. Junsu thought, before it finally came in vain when Taec shoved all the stationary away and put him up on the table,”Taec! Not here!”, the taller boy replied with a menacing grin,”No, I want it here."
This time they did it, it was more tense. Taec's warm fingers grazed on every part of his soft skin. The younger had to admit, since the first time they had sex, he was addicted. The feeling was too good to let go, but he would never think it was lust, because Junsu made him see more, feel more. He adores everything about him and he didn't want to hold back, not anymore.
"Mhh.." Junsu's moan was muffled as Taec slipped further into him, lifting his legs over his shoulders and caressed the back of his thighs. Taec continued thrusting while Junsu’s consciousness was blending in with the pleasure and pain. Junsu’s grip on Taec’s shoulder tightened,Taec placed his teeth on the bitten skin trailing kisses up to his jawbone and ear, “Junsu, i love you”, he wasn’t too sure of what he heard, the sound of clanking table, skin slapping to skin, his own moans and the consciousness that slowly started to fade away, took over his mind completely.
“Taec.. I..”was the only thing Junsu could say before his head dropped to Taec’s shoulder.....; love you too.
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The next day, Taec was reading men’s health magazine while laying around lazily on the bed. Every once in a while Junsu would steal a glance or two, trying to assure himself that he wasn’t dreaming last night. I was half unconscious that night.. it might have been a dream, but ... it was real, he said it..
“What’s wrong ?”, Junsu nearly jumped from the chair, “You’ve been staring at me with quite a ferocious look as if you’re trying to eat me alive”
Junsu giggled, Maybe I should ask... , “well, i’m not too sure myself ... “, Junsu twisted his chair, If i love him then i should!
“You know I said I like you right?”
“Yeah.”
“Well, I love you.”
Taecyeon kept quiet kept staring at Junsu, who looked down to his lap and fidgeted nervously. He refused to look at Taec, afraid that what he said might ruin this relationship they were building. “Sorry, am I moving too fast?” Junsu said, still averting his eyes . Holy crap, Kim Junsu, you shouldn’t have asked that! He was regretting it until he felt a hand gently tugging the back of his hair, forcing him to turn to Taec. He was too scared he immediately shut his eyes.
“Open your eyes.”
Junsu shook his head.
He heard Taec sighed, the hand which gripped his hair now caressing, running fingers through his locks. Junsu peeked through one eye and was startled when Taec’s face was too close. Taecyeon blew on his lips, Junsu’s face immediately turning red, he pushed at Taec’s chest but the giant didn’t even budge, still too close.
Taec eventually caught his lips and kissed softly, moving slowly in passion, his hand now messaging the back of Junsu’s neck. The older eventually relaxed and gave in to the kiss. He yelped when Taecyeon tugged him into his lap but was silenced when Taec attached their lips again, winding his arms around Junsu’s waist, pulling him closer. Junsu was overwhelmed by Taecyeon’s intimacy and cupped his face, pushing his face away slightly. He searched his eyes until Taec detached his hand from his cheek and laced their fingers together.
“You idiot, i told you, I love you too.”
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Pairing: Taecyeon/Junsu
Genre: romance, fluff, smut
Words: 4,765
Rating: NC-17
Summary: How their awkward relationship turned into love.
A/N: had been working on this for months now. and collab with my bb emorevival ^^
“You guys are so awkward.”
Junsu stopped dead in his tracks, Taec choked on his coffee a bit.
“Excuse me?” Taec said, wiping stale coffee off his mouth.
Junsu gulped and attempted to walk away quietly but Taec had walked over to him and slung his arms around his shoulders. They faced the couple on the couch. “Me and Junsu are like brothers okay, we are tight.” He shook Junsu’s shoulders,while the other giving away an unnoticed hurt smile.
Quickly shoving the hand away and forcing a chuckle, Junsu entered the room and sat on the chair to shove Junho’s words out of his mind. Soon,a loud bam from the door was heard when Taecyeon entered the room. The older could only hope that he won’t listen to his throbbing heart that could just burst anytime,
“We aren’t awkward?” Junsu asked him from his desk.
“Of course we’re not.” Taec replied bluntly, tapping the keyboard of his laptop.
Junsu cleared his throat and stared forward to his blank half written paper, the lyrics about heartbroken love and such being cut short. He sighed and tapped his pencil on the table, with random beats hoping for an inspiration. He turned around on his chair, staring at Taecyeon. The taller eventually catches him and raises an eyebrow. “What?”
“Nothing. Trying to find ideas…”
“And staring at me will help?”
“Shut up. I have my own writing methods.”
Junsu blushed and turned back to his desk. Taecyeon chuckled, Junsu swore he heard him say “You are so cute sometimes.” But he kept quiet. 5 minutes, 10 minutes and 20 minutes passed away with a complete silence in the room, until Taecyeon stood and walking toward Junsu,”let’s see what you got here”,Taecyeon tried to take a look when his hand accidentally touched Junsu, and older man quickly stood up in startle. Taecyeon gave him a confused look and Junsu was dead speechless of his surprised action.
“Sorry”, the younger one said
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“Okay, so we are awkward.” Taecyeon admitted to Nichkhun one morning, “But we’ll fix that right, Junsu?” He reached forward from his position on the couch to ruffle Junsu’s hair. The older turned back from the TV, frowning confusingly. “What do you mean?”
“Let’s go out for coffee or something, we’ll talk things through.” Taec stated. “Like a date.” Junho added to his speech. Junsu blushed and smacked his Junbrother on the head, his embarrassment led to him attacking Junho. “Shut up, you brat.” Junsu continued to pinch the squealing boy’s sides until he begged for mercy and apologized. Taecyeon and Nichkhun just chuckling at the side.
“Honestly,” Junsu sipped on his latte. “I’m fine with being awkward..” Taec made a face, an unbelievable one. “Are you serious? We’re roommates, we’re supposed to be close.” Taec said , lolling his drink around.
“But what if I say..” Junsu bit his lip, pausing for a second. “I would be too close.”
“What does that mean?”
“As in ‘liking’ someone.”
“You mean..”
“I like you.”
Taec’s jaw dropped open, his drink being placed on the table before it slips,“Now see this is why I was alright with being awkward all the time.” Junsu said, looking away. Taec was still silent, then everything clicked to him, why Junsu avoids standing to close to him, or being alone together, except at night, when they needed to sleep. Junsu was always conservative about himself.
Junsu stood up “Let’s just go home..”
The atmosphere was so revolting between them on the way home that Junsu felt his chest tightened too much, so suffocating. Neither of the two said anything nor did they look at each other. Junsu stared at the younger’s footsteps who walked in front of him in the snow, though every once in a while his eyes would stick to Taecyeon’s right hand. I wonder would my hand fit those spaces between his fingers? But he quickly averted his gaze when Taec’s shocked face came in mind.
When the two of them reached at the dorm, none of the member got the guts to say a word about the suffocating atmosphere between the lead singer and the rapper.
The room was nearly a pitch dark with only the moonlight from behind the curtain when Taecyeon came. I suppose he’s asleep, or so he thought. Taecyeon tried to bring himself to sleep with his hyung’s confession resounding in his mind. He would turn his body to right, left and adjusted his legs to finally get a comfortable sleep position but the try came to no avail, especially not while the certain person above him kept on moving and making noises
“Hey, Junsu”
“.............”, no answer.
“Junsu-hyung”
“Come on, i know you’re not asleep yet”
“What do you want ?”
“I’m,uhm,..”
“Look, if it’s about the confession earlier, just forget it”
Taecyeon climbed on the bunk bed, "Come here”, he gestured, still standing on the ladder, Junsu sat and adjust himself so that he was sitting closer near Taecyeon, "Are you sure you want me to forget that?"
The older man averted his gaze away.
“Because i’m considering about... going out with you”
His jaw dropped open.
“I might not fancy men to begin with, but if it’s with you, i feel like it’s okay, and I really wanna do something about this awkward thing ... Ugh,come on, put that ridiculous face away, I’m dead serious”
Junsu blinked and sighed.
“You should reconsider. You’re right, you don’t even fancy men to begin with, this isn’t as simple as you think”, Junsu patted Taecyeon’s head,”We can think about something else to fix this awkwardness."
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Those awkward days slowly began to change with Junsu’s effort to act as normal as he could near his crush. Knowing this, a feeling of wanting to tease the older man grew within Taec. At first Taecyeon would be a little flirty, and Junsu trying to be a cold-headed he was, would convert the conversation to some jokes, which then he would laugh at in force and Taecyeon being a great player he was, would gave the older man a small charming smile. It couldn’t help the butterflies in the stomach flew higher and Junsu lost track of his own heartbeat.
“Good morning.” Taecyeon whispered behind him. Junsu jumped abruptly, causing his forehead to hit the upper cupboard with a loud thunk. He quickly put down his coffee and patted his forehead, squinting painfully. “Owww..” He was still groggy and the pain did not help.
Taecyeon was concerned. “I’m sorry.” He said, flipped Junsu around and cupped his face, sure enough there was a red blotch on the side of his forehead. Taec rubbed that spot gently and blew on it. Blood rushed to Junsu’s face, he squirmed. “Um, it’s okay.”
Taec noticed that the older was blushing and smirked, He leaned closer and Junsu’s eyes went wide, he leaned back. His back eventually pressed to the counter, Taec’s smile never leaving his face. Junsu shut his eyes and curled back. He felt Taec kissing his forehead and heard his chuckle. He opened his eyes to see a grinning Taecyeon walking out of the kitchen, saying “Thanks for the coffee.” Junsu turned around only to see an empty counter, his coffee gone. He sighed and reached up for the sugar, planning to make a new one.
“Coffee thief.”
Taec’s smiled, quickly getting back to their room and started to type random key words on google. Somehow thousands of questions began to pop out on Taec’s mind, Junsu is so cute blushing like that. If i hold his fingers tightly, how would he react ? if i pull his waist and hug him him close, would he gasp ? if i bite his lips, would he shiver and try to run away ? if i lick his skin, would he moan my name? when he finally came to his senses, he quickly shook his head in confusion and gaped at what he typed.
Ok Taecyeon Kim Junsu
He stood up and slammed the desk. What the fuck is happening to me?
He was falling in love.
With Junsu.
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Their first kiss was somehow awkwardly sweet. Junsu was on his usual spot at the desk, scribbling some lyrics for a song. He was feeling a little frustrated, the ideas were not coming on well. He rested his on the desk, closing his eyes and sighing. Suddenly, a warm hand palming the top of his head made him lift his head up, eyes meeting a smiling Taecyeon.
“They’re playing a movie in front. Wanna join?”
Junsu nodded bleakly as Taecyeon dragged him out of the room to the living room, where the others were huddled on the floor like little girls at a sleepover. “Why don’t you guys sit on the couch?” Junsu questioned, sending a funny look at Nichkhun. “Taec reserved it, that greedy ass.” Junsu raised his eyebrows and looked Taecyeon, who just grinned in response.
Taec taller sat on the couch and gestured Junsu to him, who seemed hesitant. Taec rolled his eyes and pulled him down beside him. Junsu squirmed when Taec put an arm around his shoulder; he was not used to this. “You’re giving me too much hope you know…” he whispered, Taec just smiled at him and slid his arm lower, winding it around Junsu’s waist, making him gasp. “Then just take it.”
Junsu was surprised at his choice of words and turned his head, slightly brushing his lips to Taecyeon’s. The contact shocked him and he would have jumped away but Taec’s arm kept him in place. Taecyeon stared at the wide-eyed Junsu who was so close to him, something about the way his body shivered when he caressed his back made him feel content. He leaned his face closer, until Junsu had shut his eyes from embarrassment. Taecyeon pressed his lips gently to Junsu’s, his mind went blank for a second as he thought that Junsu’s lips were as soft as he had imagined. He stayed like that for a moment before pulling back, immediately smiling at a bewildered-looking Junsu who was blushing a thousand shades of red. “Now stay put and watch the movie."
Junsu had written tons of sickeningly sweet love songs that night.
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Taec did a lot of thinking after the night he kissed Junsu. He was surprisingly calm after that, enjoying the movie with his arm around Junsu. He felt a warm tingly feeling the whole night and it made him feel good. Taecyeon felt weird too.
How can I like him that fast? But he's so cute. Is my feelings real? His reactions are adorable. Am I being honest? He's so beautiful. How did I miss all this? I want to touch him. He likes me, but should I? I want him.
Taec had developed multiple new habits. He was more playful towards Junsu. Plus he was more affectionate with him. He'd watch out for the older. Maybe even getting a little jealous over his close brotherly bond with Junho and close friendship with Nichkhun. He'd unconsciously touch him more too, and found himself wanting more than that. He'd even occasionally kiss Junsu in a domestic way like on the cheek or forehead. The older would just shiver a little and smile up at him, which made him want to embrace the singer.
Junsu of course noticed Taecyeon's advances towards him and was a little hesitant despite the butterflies in his stomach. So he had made Taecyeon agreed to boundaries, where they would slowly build up the relationship in case Taecyeon changed his mind, which the younger thought was impossible, since Kim Junsu had plastered himself to his mind 24/7.
So Taecyeon was out to win him over permanently.
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"You know how you said we'd find another way to cure our awkwardness?"
"Y-yeah.."
“It worked out too well, didn’t it?” Taecyeon licked his neck, nipping slightly. Junsu shivered and nodded, gripping on Taec’s biceps as he accepted another kiss, this time Taec pried his lips apart with his tongue, seeking entrance. Junsu moaned to his mouth as their tongue battled for dominance. The kiss turned rougher when Taec won, pushing him harder against the wall. Junsu squeaked when Taec attempted to tug his shirt up.
“Y-You can’t.”
“And why not?”, Junsu let go of his arms and settled his hands on Taec’s chest. He grinned slightly, which made Taec pull a questioning look.
“Earn it.” ,Junsu said and slipped away from Taecyeon’s grip, out of their room. Taec was baffled for a second, but was turned on by his denying behavior.
Junsu slept at the living room with Chansung and Wooyoung that night, after a stare-war with Taecyeon, and of course he won. Leaving the giant all fired up on the floor for nothing. But Junsu woke up to a much softer ground the day after that, with a larger body close to him that he assumed was Chansung. That didn’t surprise him; the youngest always had a tendency to cuddle anyways. Junsu didn’t bother to open his eyes and sighed, planning to go back to sleep. Until he feels a face dipping to his neck, patches of sharp hair grazing his cheek. -Chan’s hair isn’t this short.- Junsu shot his eyes open and met with a blurry orange vision. He knew that colour too well. “Taecyeon?” as soon as he spoke up, the giant pulled away a few inches just to face Junsu. His face formed a known smirk as Junsu’s forehead creased. “How did I get here?” Junsu was well aware that they were in Taec’s bottom bunk, a little curious of how he managed to get here from the living room floor.
“I kidnapped you.”
“and why?”
“Because I wanted to.”
“Oh..” Junsu couldn’t help the blush tinting his cheeks.
“Just go back to sleep, it’s still early and we’re resting today.”
Taecyeon winded his arms around Junsu and pulled him to his chest. Junsu was totally stiff to the touch, even more so when Taecyeon moved his hand up and down his back. Junsu shut his eyes and buried his face to the crook if Taecyeon’s neck, hiding his deep blush. Taecyeon moved closer, pressed his nose to Junsu’s shoulder and breathed his scent. Neither of them could go back to sleep, not when this is the closest they had been physically, and somehow Taecyeon needed more.
Junsu’s heart jumped when Taecyeon pecked his shoulder, starting to trail kisses. His body immediately froze, “T-Taec,” he stuttered out and shivered when fingers slipped beneath his sleeveless shirt, tracing his bare back. “Relax. Stop, being, so, awkward, with, me.” Taecyeon spoke, each word deliberately accompanied by kisses on soft skin. His lips eventually stopped at Junsu’s cheek. He pulled away to look at Junsu, who was biting his lower lip. Taec leaned in and kissed it, before catching his lips into a soft kiss. Junsu tried his best to respond, but he couldn’t stop squirming when Taec’s hands went higher, his shirt riding up, exposing his stomach. Junsu grabbed Taec’s wrists, breaking the kiss and panting softly, “W-what about boundaries?”
“No need for that anymore.”
“What do you mean?”
“I’ll show you what I mean.”
Taecyeon hovered over him, staring right into those deep dark orbs that showed uncertainty. He smiled and kissed Junsu again, long and passionate. Junsu kissed back with as much love as he can. He wrapped his arms around Taec’s neck and tilted his head, opening his mouth as Taec’s tongue poked in, ravishing his taste. Their chests were pressed together and Taec could practically feel Junsu’s heart beating rapidly.
“Mhm Taec…” Junsu moaned quietly when Taec’s hand travelled up his thighs. He was now sucking on Junsu’s neck, enjoying the moans and whimpers he was making. Junsu gasped when Taec’s hand glided across his crotch, kneading his hips, his is other hand undoing the strings of Junsu’s sweatpants. Junsu pushes Taecyeon away “Are you sure about this?” he questioned, being a little nervous and hesitant. Taec simply nodded and pecked his cheek. “Don’t you think it’s too early? For t-this...” Junsu squeaked. Taec looked over at the clock. 7am. He smirked and turned back to Junsu, “But it’s too late to back out now...” Taec kissed his collarbone and nibbled on it “Just relax Su, I’ll make you feel better.” Junsu sighs as he blushes again. Suddenly his body was lifted up for a brief moment and the next thing he knew his shirt was gone. Taec stared at the rarely seen body in front of him, he licked his lips. It was absolutely beautiful. He palmed Junsu’s abs, going up his body, feeling the warm, soft skin shivering under his fingers.
Taecyeon pushed Junsu’s sweatpants down to his knees and used a finger to trace his waistline to his hipbone. Junsu was such a sensitive man he shivered uncontrollably, holding back moans. -He’s so easy to force goose bumps on...- Taec smiled on Junsu’s skin. The way the older squirmed and panted made himself turned on. Taec took his wifebeater off and pressed his lower body down. Junsu let out the loudest gasp when Taec’s erection made itself known, pressing to his inner thigh. Imagine how he was when Taec started grinding towards him.
“Ah..” Junsu managed out. Taec couldn’t take it, early or not, he needed this. The front of his pants was already wet. He leaned to Junsu and whispered to his ear, “I’ll stop if you want me too.” Junsu just closed his eyes and shook his head, hands gripping tightly on Taecyeon. The younger slipped his pants off and attacked Junsu’s lips, engaging in a rough kiss, distracting him of what’s to come. His legs being lifted up, the younger settling in between.
Junsu’s body jumped when he felt himself being stretched. He would have let out a huge scream if it wasn’t for Taecyeon blocking out with his own lips. Junsu curled his body as Taec slipped in inch by inch, until he was eventually fully sheathed inside the older. When Taec pulled away for air, Junsu hissed in pain, tears pooling in his eyes, he was panting heavily. “You okay?” Taec frowned a little, watching Junsu shut his eyes tight, holding his breath. “Should I stop?” Then Junsu shot his eyes open and shook his head frantically. “N-No! Please don’t stop…”
Taec took his hand and laced their fingers together. He gave Junsu a kiss and started to move his hips. Junsu groaned at the friction, still not used to being filled. “Nghh..Taec.” Junsu moaned as Taec’s speed increased. He felt the pain slowly fading and the pleasure coming in little by little. Taec on the other hand was lost in pleasure, by the way Junsu was clenching around him and the way he moaned, oh those sweet melodious moans. Taecyeon snapped his hips forward abruptly and was rewarded with a low whimper.
“Junsu-yah.” Taecyeon groaned. Junsu rocking back to him, his body was trembling, the pleasure coursing through him. The heated friction sent tremors through their bodies. Taec went faster and deeper. Junsu’s moans were muffled by his kisses; he was careful not to scratch Taec’s back and gripped on the blanket. Taecyeon felt the heat pool up in his abdomen, and the way Junsu clenched tighter around him signaled that he was close too. The younger changed angles and thrust hard into him, making Junsu moan the loudest, his sweet spot found. Taecyeon devoured his lips again as he rammed in a couple of times before releasing his load right into Junsu, the older came onto his stomach, letting out a deep sigh as he sank into the mattress. Taecyeon pulled out and laid beside his tired hyung, an arm draped on his waist. He was a little breathless so he closed his eyes and caught his breath.
“Taecyeon?” came Junsu’s shaky voice.
“Hmm?” he responded, opening his eyes to see a sheepish looking Junsu.
“You won’t regret this, r-right?”
God, he’s so vulnerable like this.Taecyeon wrapped his arms around Junsu’s waist and pulled him close. His kissed Junsu full on the lips, letting the older hug him back. “No I don’t. Not at all.” He said, grinning back at the smiling Junsu.
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Taecyeon woke up again at 12am. He left Junsu in bed, the older was still exhausted and he didn’t want to wake him up. So he put a shirt on and went out for some food. The other members were already up, Junho and Wooyoung were watching TV and Chansung was in the kitchen munching on bananas, as usual. Taec decided to cook ramyun as there was no other edible food around. As it was boiling, Nichkhun appeared in the kitchen with a bright almost sinister smile. “Well look who’s finally up!”
“Good morning to you too, Khun.”
“Junsu’s still sleeping.”
“So?"
"He's usually up by now.."
"and?"
He’s not wearing a shirt, that’s odd..”
“…Oh shit.” Taec forgot that Junsu never takes his shirt off unless he's showering.
“You did it didn’t you? I heard something this morning~”
“Well, maybe..um-”
“You had morning sex with Junsu!” Khun shouted in English.
“Shut up!!” Taec widened his eyes and covered Khun’s mouth.
“Okay okay, so you’re really hitting it off with him huh?”
Taec went back to stirring the ramyun, “I dunno, but I really like him, a lot.”
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It was after music bank, when Taec’s urge to touch him increased ten folds, the heat around him growing rapidly. Something was threatening to burst inside him.
“I’m really sorry we’re still awkward in public.”
“It’s okay. We don’t need to rush, Taec-ah.”
“T-Taec? Wait-“ Junsu was cut off with lips on his own.
Taec unzipped Junsu’s outfit and palmed his body through his wifebeater. Junsu moaned as the taller pushed him harder against the wall; his owns hands reaching down to palm the bulge in Taec’s pants, earning a deep groan. “Shit, Junsu.”
Junsu was on his knees, face to face with the obvious bulge. He carefully slipped Taec’s erection out and licked it softly. Taec shuddered at the brief contact and bit his lip “Hurry..” Junsu sucked on the tip and licked the underside, making the younger groan in response, all the blood rushing south and making him even harder. Taecyeon sighed and gripped on Junsu’s soft locks, the faster he sucked the more Taec loses his mind. He was careful not to buck his hips, not fond of choking the man. Junsu continued sucking Taec’s cock, until he was pulled up by strong hands and lips kissing him hungrily.
“Taec, we c-can’t do it here..” Junsu whispered as Taec kissed down his neck, licking at the soft skin. He gave Junsu’s chest a peck and kissed his forehead. “I know.” He ran a hand through Junsu’s hair and held him close. Junsu zipped up Taec’s pants and his own outfit.
“How come you were horny anyways?”
“I could see your butt from your low slung pants.”
“Pervert.”
“Hah, now pull it up. This ass is mine.”
Junsu yelped as Taecyeon groped him while they walked out of the storage room with Taec holding his hand. He wondered when to let go of it, because, aside the fact that they were in the public place, his heartbeat undeniably jumbled up in happiness.
“Hey, where have you guys been ?”, Minjae hyung asked while scratching his head, Junsu quickly pushed Taec’s hand away, “We have to get ready for the next schedule...,” he stopped for a while and scanned the two, “It’s so rare seeing you two walking together. You guys are less awkward now huh? That’s good.”
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Despite the fact about how busy they were and tiring schedules that day, Taecyeon quickly pulled the older man to their room or their sanctuary as defined by Taecyeon the place where he can fuck Junsu without bothering other members will intrude them. The only thing Junsu could ever read what was happening before he was pushed roughly to the wall was the sound of the door being locked, and Taec’s lips locked on his.
Taec broke the kiss,his hand reached to Junsu’s forming bulge,”This hard just by the kiss... how cute.”, Junsu blushed in a shade red, “Why did you let go off my hand earlier in Music Bank?” Taec questioned.
“Because I....ah!”, Taec’s hand were gripping so hard on Junsu’s erection behind the fabric, the older gritted his teeth while catching up with his irregular breathing, “I.. didn’t want Minjae hyung to f-find out..”
“About what? It’s not like we’re going out”, Taec said in sarcasm. Junsu’s heart instantly skipped a beat as if he was cut through by a razorblade. Taecyeon quickly read the wide-eyes stare and the overall shocked expression from the older’s face, which only made him want to tease the older more and more.
He proceeded unbuttoning Junsu’s shirt while giving him a rough, lustful kiss and lifted him up, finally a soft surface.. Junsu thought, before it finally came in vain when Taec shoved all the stationary away and put him up on the table,”Taec! Not here!”, the taller boy replied with a menacing grin,”No, I want it here."
This time they did it, it was more tense. Taec's warm fingers grazed on every part of his soft skin. The younger had to admit, since the first time they had sex, he was addicted. The feeling was too good to let go, but he would never think it was lust, because Junsu made him see more, feel more. He adores everything about him and he didn't want to hold back, not anymore.
"Mhh.." Junsu's moan was muffled as Taec slipped further into him, lifting his legs over his shoulders and caressed the back of his thighs. Taec continued thrusting while Junsu’s consciousness was blending in with the pleasure and pain. Junsu’s grip on Taec’s shoulder tightened,Taec placed his teeth on the bitten skin trailing kisses up to his jawbone and ear, “Junsu, i love you”, he wasn’t too sure of what he heard, the sound of clanking table, skin slapping to skin, his own moans and the consciousness that slowly started to fade away, took over his mind completely.
“Taec.. I..”was the only thing Junsu could say before his head dropped to Taec’s shoulder.....; love you too.
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The next day, Taec was reading men’s health magazine while laying around lazily on the bed. Every once in a while Junsu would steal a glance or two, trying to assure himself that he wasn’t dreaming last night. I was half unconscious that night.. it might have been a dream, but ... it was real, he said it..
“What’s wrong ?”, Junsu nearly jumped from the chair, “You’ve been staring at me with quite a ferocious look as if you’re trying to eat me alive”
Junsu giggled, Maybe I should ask... , “well, i’m not too sure myself ... “, Junsu twisted his chair, If i love him then i should!
“You know I said I like you right?”
“Yeah.”
“Well, I love you.”
Taecyeon kept quiet kept staring at Junsu, who looked down to his lap and fidgeted nervously. He refused to look at Taec, afraid that what he said might ruin this relationship they were building. “Sorry, am I moving too fast?” Junsu said, still averting his eyes . Holy crap, Kim Junsu, you shouldn’t have asked that! He was regretting it until he felt a hand gently tugging the back of his hair, forcing him to turn to Taec. He was too scared he immediately shut his eyes.
“Open your eyes.”
Junsu shook his head.
He heard Taec sighed, the hand which gripped his hair now caressing, running fingers through his locks. Junsu peeked through one eye and was startled when Taec’s face was too close. Taecyeon blew on his lips, Junsu’s face immediately turning red, he pushed at Taec’s chest but the giant didn’t even budge, still too close.
Taec eventually caught his lips and kissed softly, moving slowly in passion, his hand now messaging the back of Junsu’s neck. The older eventually relaxed and gave in to the kiss. He yelped when Taecyeon tugged him into his lap but was silenced when Taec attached their lips again, winding his arms around Junsu’s waist, pulling him closer. Junsu was overwhelmed by Taecyeon’s intimacy and cupped his face, pushing his face away slightly. He searched his eyes until Taec detached his hand from his cheek and laced their fingers together.
“You idiot, i told you, I love you too.”
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