Everyday changes
The feeling punches you right in the gut. Everything swivels, spins and crashes. You cry, cry for nothing. Tears burning down your face. Nobody comforts you, because they don’t understand, they don’t try. You curl up into a corner. Watching as the atmosphere changes with each tick of second.
People smile, laugh and play. You envy them because you are locked inside. You don’t narrate your own life, you can’t. You were born a prisoner. You should have realized sooner. Everything flashes through your mind. From the first time you learnt to walk, till today. You notice that everyday changes, slowly dripping down. The color of life fading away bit by bit. Darkness seeping through quietly.
You shut your eyes, bite your lip. Trying so hard to imagine happy things, failing miserably. Tears pooled on the corner of your eyes again, you sob, wail and whimper. You get dizzy and you wince. The throbbing and pounding inside you head makes you scream inaudibly. You see blood red behind you closed eyes. You grit your teeth and growl. Hating the fact that you can’t do anything about it, you feel helpless, worthless and useless.
You clutch you heart and breathed. Panting slowly and steady until it’s normal. You open your eyes and wipes the tear streaks off your cheeks. You reach for your headphones, putting it on and turned up the volume at full blast. Nodding your head to the rhythm. You glance out the window. Squinting when the sun shines towards you. You sigh.
The world is unfair. But you can’t argue about it. You close your eyes. Waiting for tomorrow to come. A new change. A new day. You’re prepared.
Note: Just something to clear my mind off stuff..