Your Everything I Once Had.
I want to fall asleep and never wake up again. Maybe then things would go better for me, because as of right now I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to beg for it. I don't want to beg him. I'm scared its just familiarity and not love anymore. He sure and hell doesnt give a fuck anymore. If I were to say those things and do those things...then EVERYTHING would be ganz anderes, and he would ever right in the world to be upset. But me no. I have to take like it is and just deal because some girls he hardly ever sees rank above me. I hate this. I hate you.