I'm on the way to be brokenheart 💔
Sh*t!
I'm sorry that I'd begun the post with a bad word.
[Im the weakest]
Since last week was a darkest time of this year.
Kinpuri had announced that they will end their activities as five members per May 22nd, 2023.
Meanwhile, their new single was released yesterday.
Idk how to face that two different news.
I've watched their announcement video in FC website. They couldn't hide the sadness expression.
It was also looked in their CDTV performance, singing "Irodori".
I wonder, what's happens with them? Or something is just being started behind all of us? (I mean from the agency)
It's not like they wanted to give up their career so easily, especially Jin, how hard he have been working (compound their concerts, think about the concept etc)
Sho, how high the passions of his dreams to be come true.
Kishi, how fun he have been with other members.
Anyone who got any clues about that things, please tell me the truth..
Or I will be in the shadow of my own thought 😮💨
This is my theory, based on timelines..
First, people said they've discussed a lot since last year (2021)
The same year as Mary's deaths (?) and the new era of Julie's leadership in the company.
So, is there any difference in rules or management before & after her position?
I've heard people said her rumors but Idk what rumors exactly going on her?
Then, the 3 submit the withdrawal in June, 2022.
I thought after they release "ichiban", their communication is being worsen.
Idk why, I got bored easily on their FC contents, especially the "game you shicchaina" corner.
Their variety show "Kinpuri" also had a short duration on each segment, it felt like being hurried by something (another boredness had begun)
Their J web posts are also so "standardized" 🙄
But, I still bought their masterpiece, because almost all of their song are good! I like it! I always listen it while driving everywhere!
But, I should know earlier that they had "the signs" since then, and I just ignored them, I'm sorry Kinpuri 😭
In that period, I enjoyed on Jr. channel, where I thought it was more hilarious!
Then.. the birthday message.
Last year was the unique one. A picked one would sing a song written by them.
But this year, it was so "normal". Idk where the fun things? What's the essences that Tiara should watch these?
And.. tada!
On the midnight of Nov 4th, I got an email from FC web..
At first, I didn't really care about it.
I thought it was some notifications because I just remake my FC acc (this is my 2nd acc, the newest one)
On the morning, in the office I was working..
I checked my socmed, my surroundings have been talked it all the times.
I thought it was just a silly joke between the 3 and Renkai. I just continued working.
But..
Many people talked about it, so I typed it in search engine..
Voila!
I got that news!! 😭
Suddenly, I couldn't focused on my work.
And afterwork, I cried a lot in my room.
It was a saddest time ever, after I had been losing Arashi from my sight because of their hiatus 2 years ago 😢
In one side, I was on my denial phase. I repeatedly asking, why? What's wrong with them?
At that time, I couldn't think straight. I couldn't think anything else, but blamming their decision (without knowing that maybe it was because the agency?)
Today, Nov 11th, 2022..
I've let them go on their decision..
Please find a happiness, that we can enjoy together, as King & Prince and Tiara, for half a year to go..
I'm sorry for not writing anything in their past anniversary, or on member's birthday, or at another great events that they'd produced..
But, now I realize that I love them so much ❤️💙💛🖤💜
And I also make my own decision..
That I don't want to be a fans of groups (in this term is their Jrs) so desperately.
Because when I lost them, I will get this painful moment again..
And.. should I close this lj acc? Because in the future, everytime I read the title, I would be crying all the time..
Knowing that my daily high dose of happiness have already gone 😢
Please, let Kinpuri be the last group that I loved so much like this 🙏
I'm sorry that I'd begun the post with a bad word.
[Im the weakest]
Since last week was a darkest time of this year.
Kinpuri had announced that they will end their activities as five members per May 22nd, 2023.
Meanwhile, their new single was released yesterday.
Idk how to face that two different news.
I've watched their announcement video in FC website. They couldn't hide the sadness expression.
It was also looked in their CDTV performance, singing "Irodori".
I wonder, what's happens with them? Or something is just being started behind all of us? (I mean from the agency)
It's not like they wanted to give up their career so easily, especially Jin, how hard he have been working (compound their concerts, think about the concept etc)
Sho, how high the passions of his dreams to be come true.
Kishi, how fun he have been with other members.
Anyone who got any clues about that things, please tell me the truth..
Or I will be in the shadow of my own thought 😮💨
This is my theory, based on timelines..
First, people said they've discussed a lot since last year (2021)
The same year as Mary's deaths (?) and the new era of Julie's leadership in the company.
So, is there any difference in rules or management before & after her position?
I've heard people said her rumors but Idk what rumors exactly going on her?
Then, the 3 submit the withdrawal in June, 2022.
I thought after they release "ichiban", their communication is being worsen.
Idk why, I got bored easily on their FC contents, especially the "game you shicchaina" corner.
Their variety show "Kinpuri" also had a short duration on each segment, it felt like being hurried by something (another boredness had begun)
Their J web posts are also so "standardized" 🙄
But, I still bought their masterpiece, because almost all of their song are good! I like it! I always listen it while driving everywhere!
But, I should know earlier that they had "the signs" since then, and I just ignored them, I'm sorry Kinpuri 😭
In that period, I enjoyed on Jr. channel, where I thought it was more hilarious!
Then.. the birthday message.
Last year was the unique one. A picked one would sing a song written by them.
But this year, it was so "normal". Idk where the fun things? What's the essences that Tiara should watch these?
And.. tada!
On the midnight of Nov 4th, I got an email from FC web..
At first, I didn't really care about it.
I thought it was some notifications because I just remake my FC acc (this is my 2nd acc, the newest one)
On the morning, in the office I was working..
I checked my socmed, my surroundings have been talked it all the times.
I thought it was just a silly joke between the 3 and Renkai. I just continued working.
But..
Many people talked about it, so I typed it in search engine..
Voila!
I got that news!! 😭
Suddenly, I couldn't focused on my work.
And afterwork, I cried a lot in my room.
It was a saddest time ever, after I had been losing Arashi from my sight because of their hiatus 2 years ago 😢
In one side, I was on my denial phase. I repeatedly asking, why? What's wrong with them?
At that time, I couldn't think straight. I couldn't think anything else, but blamming their decision (without knowing that maybe it was because the agency?)
Today, Nov 11th, 2022..
I've let them go on their decision..
Please find a happiness, that we can enjoy together, as King & Prince and Tiara, for half a year to go..
I'm sorry for not writing anything in their past anniversary, or on member's birthday, or at another great events that they'd produced..
But, now I realize that I love them so much ❤️💙💛🖤💜
And I also make my own decision..
That I don't want to be a fans of groups (in this term is their Jrs) so desperately.
Because when I lost them, I will get this painful moment again..
And.. should I close this lj acc? Because in the future, everytime I read the title, I would be crying all the time..
Knowing that my daily high dose of happiness have already gone 😢
Please, let Kinpuri be the last group that I loved so much like this 🙏