Jake
Recently I have become very interested in a guy named Jake who I met through mutual friends. Jake is a 22 year old Animation major who desperately wants to live in California upon graduation. He's kinda of quiet and he comes off as a little cocky when you first get to know him but he is also really funny and sweet. He does this thing where when he teases you he gives you this shitty grin and you just can't stay mad at him. I both hate and love that at the same time. He's actually pretty perfect except for the fact that I am petrified of actually making a move and/or falling for him. I know that having fear means that I have something to lose and let's face it I have a knack for picking guys who hurt me or simply aren't interested and I really can't deal with much more of that. I guess I want the impossible. I want to know it will work out before I make the leap.I hate that I have become so jaded that even when a truly great guy comes along I suspect he has less than pure motives and I kick him to the curb without really giving him a chance. Bottom Line is that I've decided to take a leap of faith and If i land on my ass I'll just stand up again. I'll never know if I don't try, so here's to finding out...