Redefined
The last month of my life has been completely out of control. Basically a trainwreck of emotions and change. Change and I do not necessarily agree with each other so the going has been rough. Dealing with the losses of Stacy and Doug was execedingly difficult and emotionally isolating. While people consistently offer their support and talking does help, this is something i had to find a way to cope with on my own. Finding a way to contribute their memory and defining qualities into life so that they continue on has been the task required by myself and my graduating class. Honoring the good in them and living each day as if it could be my last has been freeing and healing, but it's still difficult to comprehend that they're gone. My dad started a new job in tipp city that he loves and the drive is far better than his usual daily trek to dayton so his mood is drastically improved as has our relationship. That's really important to me because I have never had a strong relationship with him.So that's good. I really am finding my niche here at school. i love my classes and am doing well. i have been approached about possibly joining a very selective sorrority which is practically invite only. they don't typically have open rush. i would join next semester at the earliest but it's very classy and i am extremely flattered to have been asked. I leave for Chicago in 2 days. Super excited about that. Things are starting to settle back in but i still am constantly looking over my shoulder for the next catastrophe so hopefully i am just being paranoid because i am definitely ready for something good to happen.