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Apr 25, 2008 08:08

I think it is all in my head. It should be all in my head. I can handle this. I think I can handle this. At least I managed to get some counceling last night so I didn't have to bug Miss Fuji- she works too hard.

If it's all in my head why do I still feel like hell? Maybe I should go to the church. I like the church. It is peaceful there. I'm sorry I ignored you yesterday Hiyoshi- I was not feeling so great. I'm really sorry.

I swear I'll try my best not to mess up any more. I just had a little bit of a bad end to my first week, I ran out of mental and emotional steam. I think I can continue on and succeed.

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I know I should actually be studying for study hall...and I guess I sort of am. I was just worried about what Mr. Akutsu said about his cellmate- so I started wondering if I am depressed. I can't tell if I'm depressed because of all these stupid little problems I got myself into- or if it's a withdrawal thing- so I did some studying on that.

The craving and depression can last for months following cessation of long-term heavy use(particularly daily). Withdrawal symptoms can also be associated with suicidal thoughts in some people.

Presently there are no effective medications for reducing craving, though some are being tested. Some studies have reported that medications such as amantadine and bromocriptine may help to reduce patient's craving, increase energy, and normalize sleep, particularly among those with the most serious problems.

The length of cocaine Withdrawal varies from person to person and on the amount and frequency of use.

agitation
depression
intense craving for the drug
extreme fatigue
anxiety
angry outbursts
lack of motivation
nausea/vomiting
shaking
irritability
muscle pain
disturbed sleep

Miss Fuji? I think I might be getting the flu a little. If it gets much worse can I get something for it?

for my records

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