...time has been spread so thin
sometimes i get so scared,that i feel like i need to run away to the farthest corner of the world, but i dont even know what im running from, and the only thing i can do is lock myself in my room and hold onto my bed and listen to some r&b from a time when everything was simpler, like ja and ashanti- down 4 u, or mariah carey- through the rain... it makes me feel ok. it makes me realize how back then i was hoping for so much mmore, and now the thought of more overwhelms me and makes me want to cry out my eyelids till i drown in my own lonliness. i think im just confused and lost and i feel lke im the kind of person that everyone is friends with but no one really loves.. no one really thinks im beautiful. connors the only good friend ive had who ever told me i was beautiful, and now hes off in PA, and i dont even think he really meant it, he was just nice. im turning into such a whiny emo bitch loser rastafarian fuckup raver kandy kid.. well as for now, im gonna go to sleep, because im still a little sick.. good luck on you guys exhibitions