Somebody please save me from myself already
Even though things are going better in life, I still feel as if I'm not making any progress. I think the whole divorce process just makes me feel like any time I move forward I'm still being pulled back. Like I'm just running in place.
As much as I'd like to think things are better, it just isn't gratifying enough.
Better now?
Yeah better than how things were a couple months ago when life was total shit and I was about ready to catch a permanent ticket outta town.
Not better than how things were a year ago when I had a great job, great family, and a great place to live. I acknowledged it I actually took time everyday to express how damn happy I was to have those things.
Not better than a few years ago when everything was simple and I didn't have to work my ass off to make ends meet.
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I'm just not able able to appreciate any of the good things that I have in life as much as I should. . . . . I don't have any real distractions from the dissolving relationship I'm in right now, so all of the potential promotions I have coming my way just don't excite me. Hanging out with my friends doesn't excite me nearly as much as it used to. The only real thing that I still get excited about is seeing my son smile and hearing him laugh.
I dunno what I'm getting at here. I just feel I've done all that I can at this point, and through all the progress I'm still just stuck in one spot.
I'm trying not to be reckless with life right now, but your mind begins to wonder when you're looking for happiness. . . . . . . .
Maybe I just need to sit down. . . . .count to ten. . . . . .and chill the fuck out.
As much as I'd like to think things are better, it just isn't gratifying enough.
Better now?
Yeah better than how things were a couple months ago when life was total shit and I was about ready to catch a permanent ticket outta town.
Not better than how things were a year ago when I had a great job, great family, and a great place to live. I acknowledged it I actually took time everyday to express how damn happy I was to have those things.
Not better than a few years ago when everything was simple and I didn't have to work my ass off to make ends meet.
. . . . . . . . . . . .
I'm just not able able to appreciate any of the good things that I have in life as much as I should. . . . . I don't have any real distractions from the dissolving relationship I'm in right now, so all of the potential promotions I have coming my way just don't excite me. Hanging out with my friends doesn't excite me nearly as much as it used to. The only real thing that I still get excited about is seeing my son smile and hearing him laugh.
I dunno what I'm getting at here. I just feel I've done all that I can at this point, and through all the progress I'm still just stuck in one spot.
I'm trying not to be reckless with life right now, but your mind begins to wonder when you're looking for happiness. . . . . . . .
Maybe I just need to sit down. . . . .count to ten. . . . . .and chill the fuck out.