Lamesauce

[2muchdew]

Just when I start to feel like I'm heading in a better direction, I start feeling totally unaccomplished. . . . .

I see what everyone else I know is doing with their lives, and it's just so much better. . . . .

The thing that gets me the most is that they are all younger than me, and have done so much more. . . . .

I keep on either running into hurdles or finding more roadblocks to stymie my progress. . . . .

I wish I had something to be proud of to distract me from it all. . . . .

But I do.......it's my son.........

Oh wow. . . . .just realized why I'm tweaking out and going back into my slump. . . . . . .for the longest time I had been taking care of my son all my own, but for the first time in forever Missa decides to spend a day with him. . . . .

So, I'm now separated from the only thing that I have to be proud of in life right now.........................

How and the hell am I going to deal with this when we move out and truly go our separate ways?

.....two weeks at a time not seeing my son.......................

I honestly and truly never knew I had become so attached.
I'm glad he means that much to me though.