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two things have been said to me that have really made me wonder why I can't just move the fuck on...they contradict eachother...
1. said by kathy, my best friend in the whole fucking world...
she told me that little corny saying that if you truly love someone, you're willing to let them go until they're ready to come back...
2. said by yasi..slowly becoming a good friend again...she asked me what I was doing..I told her I was trying to win alie back in a subtle way...she asked what was so great about alie...I told her idk...
fucking shit....why can't I just get the fuck over it..its obviously not the same alie I love(d)...and I don't think that same alie will ever be there..but something..something's hoping that she does go back to the same alie...and its fucking killing me...tonight I read some past lj entries...and fuck...I loved her so much..and she loved me back..but I fucked up...and now I've got nothing...