something personal for once.
and i didn't make this friends only coz i want everyone to know what i have to say.
stayed home, with nothing to do, nothing to look forward to.. having the biggest fight with trevor ever.. then making up, after surprising me with his reply.. fir sending me my favourite song, telling me i could use him while others make use of me.. makes him feel wanted, made me smile and laugh a little.. someone proving to me that dancing to it alone would make me feel a whole lot better.. keeping my smile on.. finding out someone's back or gonna be back soon.. and why it's been so quiet lately.. seems like guys have finally come to their senses and stopped asking me out, moving on after months of trying to knock some sense into me, and a few got themselves a gf.. and kc's already in oz.. injuring my pinkie.. missing out on yet another date with sexy-accent.. on all that's been happening in my friends' lives.. realising i dun have enough money in my purse to buy strawberries and milk.. oshyn paid for me.. what a day.
i went to the esplanade with nisa and june on friday night. my god, the memories. the first time i met San, i went to the esplanade after that, for the first time as well.. the people whom we've been or wanted to be there with.. the ones who were and could've been so much fun to have everytime we're looking at the sea, not just at the esplanade, the seaside in general.. spotting all kinds of made up images.. (alson & derek would remember that fairly well.. dugongs and fireflies no? hah) the stars, the music, the feeling you get when the breeze sends a tingle.. we started to wonder if the guys would feel the same way we did everytime they're there. if they even went there again after us.
nisa came over yesterday. we made cookies. double choc fudge cookies with chocolate chunks not chips.
i know i haven't been my very best, but i just want more time to myself and i guess, i'm comfy with the way things are, for now at least, so please, let's not get into topics like, what's next, who's next, what now, why, job, when, love, life, if you should decide to message me. and talking about getting a job, i'd probably be working my ass off for a bloody long time after getting my results, so what's the fucken rush?
i've figured that being unemployed, gives me time to discover who i am for real.. what i really want.. gives me time to reminisce.. of things i smiled about, cried over, and what not.. realising the opportunities i've missed.. opportunities i'm still passing.. allowing me time to ponder on priorities.. who or what truly matters. and San, i'm sorry i didn't tell you about the whole job-thing earlier. i guess, for now, you're the only who truly understands ^^"
just a while ago, i felt like everything's gone wrong.. like i've lost all meaning.
take it easy.. life is good, no matter how bad it is.. its always good. we'll make it good, maybe you're right :)
and to be honest, i've been happier than upset, when i'm left alone.
what do you think? ^^"
You Should Date An Italian!
You love for old fashioned romance, with an old fashioned guy
An Italian guy is the perfect candidate to be your prince charming
If your head doesn't spin enough, just down another espresso with him
Invest in a motorcycle helmet - and some carb blocker for all that pasta!
Which Foreign Guy Should You Date? Take This Quiz :-)
>> yea, i'd love to date the man in the picture. anytime ^^"
stayed home, with nothing to do, nothing to look forward to.. having the biggest fight with trevor ever.. then making up, after surprising me with his reply.. fir sending me my favourite song, telling me i could use him while others make use of me.. makes him feel wanted, made me smile and laugh a little.. someone proving to me that dancing to it alone would make me feel a whole lot better.. keeping my smile on.. finding out someone's back or gonna be back soon.. and why it's been so quiet lately.. seems like guys have finally come to their senses and stopped asking me out, moving on after months of trying to knock some sense into me, and a few got themselves a gf.. and kc's already in oz.. injuring my pinkie.. missing out on yet another date with sexy-accent.. on all that's been happening in my friends' lives.. realising i dun have enough money in my purse to buy strawberries and milk.. oshyn paid for me.. what a day.
i went to the esplanade with nisa and june on friday night. my god, the memories. the first time i met San, i went to the esplanade after that, for the first time as well.. the people whom we've been or wanted to be there with.. the ones who were and could've been so much fun to have everytime we're looking at the sea, not just at the esplanade, the seaside in general.. spotting all kinds of made up images.. (alson & derek would remember that fairly well.. dugongs and fireflies no? hah) the stars, the music, the feeling you get when the breeze sends a tingle.. we started to wonder if the guys would feel the same way we did everytime they're there. if they even went there again after us.
nisa came over yesterday. we made cookies. double choc fudge cookies with chocolate chunks not chips.
i know i haven't been my very best, but i just want more time to myself and i guess, i'm comfy with the way things are, for now at least, so please, let's not get into topics like, what's next, who's next, what now, why, job, when, love, life, if you should decide to message me. and talking about getting a job, i'd probably be working my ass off for a bloody long time after getting my results, so what's the fucken rush?
i've figured that being unemployed, gives me time to discover who i am for real.. what i really want.. gives me time to reminisce.. of things i smiled about, cried over, and what not.. realising the opportunities i've missed.. opportunities i'm still passing.. allowing me time to ponder on priorities.. who or what truly matters. and San, i'm sorry i didn't tell you about the whole job-thing earlier. i guess, for now, you're the only who truly understands ^^"
just a while ago, i felt like everything's gone wrong.. like i've lost all meaning.
take it easy.. life is good, no matter how bad it is.. its always good. we'll make it good, maybe you're right :)
and to be honest, i've been happier than upset, when i'm left alone.
what do you think? ^^"
You Should Date An Italian!
You love for old fashioned romance, with an old fashioned guy
An Italian guy is the perfect candidate to be your prince charming
If your head doesn't spin enough, just down another espresso with him
Invest in a motorcycle helmet - and some carb blocker for all that pasta!
Which Foreign Guy Should You Date? Take This Quiz :-)
>> yea, i'd love to date the man in the picture. anytime ^^"