Hi mom!!!
So wow, im really sad. I can get through 7ish months and start to get used to the fact that i have noone. Then twenty minutes of 'affection' and im back to wanting someone more than ever. I feel like a huge loser for keeping up with how long its been but its now going on two weeks sense ive been with a guy. Gosh, i hate this so much, theres so much wrong with everything right now. I cant stand it here. Im drowning in my own self pity and i hate that even more. I dont want to be home, i cant stand being around my family right now, they always find a way to say the wrong thing.
Ive been rocking back and forth, listening to Plea for Purging (thanks to Seth)and making more sense of the lyrics every track. Im trying to make sense of so many things in my life right now and i cant get it fast enough. God please grant me the courage to go on and the strength to be honest to myself. I know your all thinking-that stupid 15 year-old she doesnt now shit.
Yeah, thats about it. I never found a ride for the show at Drews tomarrow so i have to find some way to not go home. I am going to stop venting and leave you all alone ( the ones of you who havent already gotten fed up and quit reading ) . I love you all and i hope you all have a great weekend. Bye...
Ive been rocking back and forth, listening to Plea for Purging (thanks to Seth)and making more sense of the lyrics every track. Im trying to make sense of so many things in my life right now and i cant get it fast enough. God please grant me the courage to go on and the strength to be honest to myself. I know your all thinking-that stupid 15 year-old she doesnt now shit.
Yeah, thats about it. I never found a ride for the show at Drews tomarrow so i have to find some way to not go home. I am going to stop venting and leave you all alone ( the ones of you who havent already gotten fed up and quit reading ) . I love you all and i hope you all have a great weekend. Bye...