the games shut down....sorry
well its over. Lucas and i are no more. cant say i didnt see it coming. cant say it wasnt expected. but damn it hurts. no matter how much i tried to prep myself for this moment....it still hurts. I've shed many tears. I thought they had stopped, but no....this morning i woke up at 6...which those who know me know that on school days i never NEVER wake up that early. i sat there in my bed staring at the ceiling...thinking...and boom...once again the tears started to flow. lol im actually while writing this. I kno I'm lame. i mean why shed so many tears over one guy. I guess the thing that hurts most that i still love him. And supposedly....from what he says....he still loves me. Its just a horrible situation. Whoever thinks you can't lose a guy for a superficial reason....they are so wrong. I cant even being to explain how wrong they are. And as for those who felt i was conforming to something he wantd.....that obviously proved to be wrong considering part of the reason we broke up was based on not conforming...so thats wat i have to say bout that. I can't believe its over....just like that...in a matter of hours.
wat the fuck has happend to my life??
wat the fuck has happend to my life??