Something's out of place in my head...halp plox >.
I used to be that cool nerd chick. That's what made me sexy. I could sit around & talk shit & play video games (& suck at them) & just be one of the guys. I was strong and independent. I was that cool nerd chick, and I felt sexy.
But then I got broken, and like a bone that's not properly set, I didn't heal back to the same cool chick I once was. I'm bent. Fragile. I'm damaged & clingy & irrational. And I can't even cheer my boyfriend up after a long and stressful day. He doesn't even want anything to do with me most nights now. I wish I could be that cool, strong, independent & sexy nerd chick that I used to be. I wish that I were strong enough to change & become that again for him.
I know it's not his fault. He just wants to have "me" time & unwind after 10 or more stressful hours, 6 days a week. That's entirely understandable, & I can't blame him.
I just wish that I could make him happy.
...& if it's possible, I'd like to be happy too...
But then I got broken, and like a bone that's not properly set, I didn't heal back to the same cool chick I once was. I'm bent. Fragile. I'm damaged & clingy & irrational. And I can't even cheer my boyfriend up after a long and stressful day. He doesn't even want anything to do with me most nights now. I wish I could be that cool, strong, independent & sexy nerd chick that I used to be. I wish that I were strong enough to change & become that again for him.
I know it's not his fault. He just wants to have "me" time & unwind after 10 or more stressful hours, 6 days a week. That's entirely understandable, & I can't blame him.
I just wish that I could make him happy.
...& if it's possible, I'd like to be happy too...