shitty pitty ding-dong
ug. hey to all who dont exist.
well today my computer pissed me off yet again. technologie hates me.neways i was typing my history notes when the computer shut down and erased almost ALL of our programs.fuck.
then on top of that everything has gotten worst. now im not even going to school nemore. today i didnt go and i dont like ill be able to go tomorrow. i just cant. its fucked up i noe but still. things are getting worst, getting crazy, getting WAY outta hand.
i knew they'd get worst but not this bad. to far, cant go back. i need help. wow. last night i almost died. i had a meaningful conversation with Boy X and i almost fucking died. but he had to go for a soccer game.
i cant believe how much i miss talking to him. you dont noe whut youve got til its gone. now hes gone and i fucking miss him. i miss his presence, his voice, his touch. i miss everything about him and its driving me crazy.
i like to comment more on the whole making a big deal over me. im sirious stop it! im not worth it. some other depressed teen needs your dead words of wisdom. as for me ill survive without them. they just make me worst. thanx for caring though.
whutever. i dont care nemore. things suck more then normal. i cant sleep. i cant eat. im absolutly dead. and thats whut i wish i could be.
internly dead,
the depressed child
~*~I hope you hear these words.
They are the ones that ill say last.
For later on ill fly with the birds.
For I can never change the past.
I hope you knew
How much I care
How much pain I went through
Just everyday, to sit and stare
Every word that you speak,
Every move that you make
Just makes me more and more weak
Everyday there with a smile, oh so fake
The other girls they don’t know you
And they don’t really love
I’ve been trying to explain to you
That your as precious as a dove.
You don’t deserve them
You can do much better
You sparkle like a beautiful gem
And for that, I’m writing you this letter.
I hope you don’t hate me
For the things that I’ve done
I wish I could just be free
And finally begin to have fun.~*~
well today my computer pissed me off yet again. technologie hates me.neways i was typing my history notes when the computer shut down and erased almost ALL of our programs.fuck.
then on top of that everything has gotten worst. now im not even going to school nemore. today i didnt go and i dont like ill be able to go tomorrow. i just cant. its fucked up i noe but still. things are getting worst, getting crazy, getting WAY outta hand.
i knew they'd get worst but not this bad. to far, cant go back. i need help. wow. last night i almost died. i had a meaningful conversation with Boy X and i almost fucking died. but he had to go for a soccer game.
i cant believe how much i miss talking to him. you dont noe whut youve got til its gone. now hes gone and i fucking miss him. i miss his presence, his voice, his touch. i miss everything about him and its driving me crazy.
i like to comment more on the whole making a big deal over me. im sirious stop it! im not worth it. some other depressed teen needs your dead words of wisdom. as for me ill survive without them. they just make me worst. thanx for caring though.
whutever. i dont care nemore. things suck more then normal. i cant sleep. i cant eat. im absolutly dead. and thats whut i wish i could be.
internly dead,
the depressed child
~*~I hope you hear these words.
They are the ones that ill say last.
For later on ill fly with the birds.
For I can never change the past.
I hope you knew
How much I care
How much pain I went through
Just everyday, to sit and stare
Every word that you speak,
Every move that you make
Just makes me more and more weak
Everyday there with a smile, oh so fake
The other girls they don’t know you
And they don’t really love
I’ve been trying to explain to you
That your as precious as a dove.
You don’t deserve them
You can do much better
You sparkle like a beautiful gem
And for that, I’m writing you this letter.
I hope you don’t hate me
For the things that I’ve done
I wish I could just be free
And finally begin to have fun.~*~