*My Mom*
Okay so I just got off the phone with my mom. And I'm so happy I could cry. Actaully, I am.
No matter what's happened between me and her, she's always going to be my mom. And I miss her.
She called me out of the blue yesterday right before I was going to work. I called her back on my break later on that night and we talked for a little bit before I had to go back. I cried a bit but I was so happy.
I hadn't talked to her since September. It was just so good to hear her voice, to know that she was okay.
For a while now I've just been hiding this sadness. Holding it inside, pretending it wasn't there. And when I talk to her, I can feel the sadness but I let it in, and then it's gone. It's just, I've wanted for so long for everything to be okay. And it feels like it is, I hope it is.
I miss home so much. It just felt so good to feel normal again. So many things have changed, that I almost feel disconnected from myself. But for right now, I feel like I'm getting me, back. And I'm happy.
She baught me christmas presents. I couldn't believe it. From the sounds of it, she baught me everything that I've been needing. Everything that we don't have the money to buy right now. I'm so thankful.
So incredibly thankful.
I'm coming home in March if it kills me.
Anyhow. That's all for now. I'll do a real update later. I've gotta go blow my nose. Crying and being sick don't mix well. :)
No matter what's happened between me and her, she's always going to be my mom. And I miss her.
She called me out of the blue yesterday right before I was going to work. I called her back on my break later on that night and we talked for a little bit before I had to go back. I cried a bit but I was so happy.
I hadn't talked to her since September. It was just so good to hear her voice, to know that she was okay.
For a while now I've just been hiding this sadness. Holding it inside, pretending it wasn't there. And when I talk to her, I can feel the sadness but I let it in, and then it's gone. It's just, I've wanted for so long for everything to be okay. And it feels like it is, I hope it is.
I miss home so much. It just felt so good to feel normal again. So many things have changed, that I almost feel disconnected from myself. But for right now, I feel like I'm getting me, back. And I'm happy.
She baught me christmas presents. I couldn't believe it. From the sounds of it, she baught me everything that I've been needing. Everything that we don't have the money to buy right now. I'm so thankful.
So incredibly thankful.
I'm coming home in March if it kills me.
Anyhow. That's all for now. I'll do a real update later. I've gotta go blow my nose. Crying and being sick don't mix well. :)