I feel so wasted, like I just spent two years working for nothing, living is hard enough but when I even try, that just adds to this feeling
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ok then I HATE all their trash flavored trash, they are nothing
and when I am talking about fakes, I also mean in a Christian like scense
they are all pathetic nobodies drowning in their nothing life and it is just so disgusting, now Im sure that there are exceptions of people there, but it all seems like and act for the most part, just some big show and then that just basically THROWS EVERYBODY ELSE INTO HELL because they are like 'oh I don't wanna be like that...' so few people actually taste it, actually touch it, and that is just so pityful
now Im not some righteous Godful person, I screw up, I slip up...ALL THE TIME and I hate it, this is as bad as it gets, then why do I wanna be here? when I am just going to be dissappointed in myself so much
now that is really not the full reason for this, oh no...not even close, I wish it could be that but its not, I would have bitten off too much for me to chew but too bad I can't even chew through this arm that is shoved right into my mouth
I am just so sick of all these lame reasons, and all these lame 'Christians' it is just so messed up, like some sick joke or prank, it very is a heart weighing thing when your on a team of people who can't even run, and it hurts so much knowing that your still known by the people who dont' try, they just are fireproof, and they care about nothing else
and Im pretty much no exception to most of this, besides I am AWARE I myself get wrapped up in my own desire for the dark beauty of pain, and thus blocks out, I don't feel like doing things I should, I don't feel like actually reading my air, cause so much of this trash world brings me down and other trash heads just suffocate me and its just a spiral that just ends, this world decays me slowly and I hate it cause its just so hard sometimes
and it also pisses me off so much when people go and take one little thing that I say and they only talk about that, if your going to adress me, adress all of me and what I said, not just 'one grammatical error' and say 'haha cheers, Im a big dork who made a funny'
I would almost rather not go to a Christian school, cause its so easy to get comfortable because there is next to no tension there and so no reason for anybody to do anything
ITS ALL A BIG SHOW AND YOU MAKE ME WANT TO CRY SO HARD I THROW UP YOU PATHETIC THINGS THAT ARE JUST SO CIRCLED AROUND YOURSELF I HATE YOUR KIND
if this is as bad as it gets then why am I still hanging around....
didn't mean to completely piss you off I was just saying that you just generalized every person when you really don't know every person and there are more people that are real and not just wrapped up in themselves then you know so don't go criticizing every "lame" Christian, people are trying and just get put down by the pressures that they feel from everything too.
and when I am talking about fakes, I also mean in a Christian like scense
they are all pathetic nobodies drowning in their nothing life and it is just so disgusting, now Im sure that there are exceptions of people there, but it all seems like and act for the most part, just some big show and then that just basically THROWS EVERYBODY ELSE INTO HELL because they are like 'oh I don't wanna be like that...' so few people actually taste it, actually touch it, and that is just so pityful
now Im not some righteous Godful person, I screw up, I slip up...ALL THE TIME and I hate it, this is as bad as it gets, then why do I wanna be here? when I am just going to be dissappointed in myself so much
now that is really not the full reason for this, oh no...not even close, I wish it could be that but its not, I would have bitten off too much for me to chew but too bad I can't even chew through this arm that is shoved right into my mouth
I am just so sick of all these lame reasons, and all these lame 'Christians' it is just so messed up, like some sick joke or prank, it very is a heart weighing thing when your on a team of people who can't even run, and it hurts so much knowing that your still known by the people who dont' try, they just are fireproof, and they care about nothing else
and Im pretty much no exception to most of this, besides I am AWARE
I myself get wrapped up in my own desire for the dark beauty of pain, and thus blocks out, I don't feel like doing things I should, I don't feel like actually reading my air, cause so much of this trash world brings me down and other trash heads just suffocate me and its just a spiral that just ends, this world decays me slowly and I hate it cause its just so hard sometimes
and it also pisses me off so much when people go and take one little thing that I say and they only talk about that, if your going to adress me, adress all of me and what I said, not just 'one grammatical error' and say 'haha cheers, Im a big dork who made a funny'
I would almost rather not go to a Christian school, cause its so easy to get comfortable because there is next to no tension there and so no reason for anybody to do anything
ITS ALL A BIG SHOW AND YOU MAKE ME WANT TO CRY SO HARD I THROW UP YOU PATHETIC THINGS THAT ARE JUST SO CIRCLED AROUND YOURSELF I HATE YOUR KIND
if this is as bad as it gets then why am I still hanging around....
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