I'll tell you my dirty little secret
You took it
You wanted it
But you deceived
I miss it. I silently sob alone in the dark when no one is looking. Thankfully my world is crumbling around me creating a subtle distraction from my quiet, self disgust. There is a small release when I cry. Like a part of me is coming to terms with my defeat. I wanted to cry last night but instead I swallowed my feeling and chased them down with a beer. It was the simplest request how could I say no. But the image I saw through the lens put a shot right through my chest. It was wrong to ask me to do such a thing. But sitting here in church I realize it doesn’t matter. It’s empty. I sometimes feel that only in prayer do I see what is real. There is so much shit all around us. To the blind it looks like gold but when you see things for what they truly are it’s almost amusing to see others wallowing in crap. I only wish I would never go blind again. If I have anything to say to you, it’s that I pray for you no matter how you feel about it. I pray for you.
You wanted it
But you deceived
I miss it. I silently sob alone in the dark when no one is looking. Thankfully my world is crumbling around me creating a subtle distraction from my quiet, self disgust. There is a small release when I cry. Like a part of me is coming to terms with my defeat. I wanted to cry last night but instead I swallowed my feeling and chased them down with a beer. It was the simplest request how could I say no. But the image I saw through the lens put a shot right through my chest. It was wrong to ask me to do such a thing. But sitting here in church I realize it doesn’t matter. It’s empty. I sometimes feel that only in prayer do I see what is real. There is so much shit all around us. To the blind it looks like gold but when you see things for what they truly are it’s almost amusing to see others wallowing in crap. I only wish I would never go blind again. If I have anything to say to you, it’s that I pray for you no matter how you feel about it. I pray for you.