show me a heart w/o pain and I will show u a heart that dosen't beat
What the fuck am I doing? who do I think I'm kidding? I nothing more than a fuck up. look at me I'm homeless and bearly work. I'm going no where. now all I need is to become an addicate or pregnet and I'm set. sure I have dreams but what good have they done me so far? all I've gotten is heartace. fuck it. I've need to face facts I fucked up. I screwed my life over. I put faith into the wrong hands and now my future is gone. I have no where alse to go. I'm joing the national guard. it's my only hope.
I can't count on anyone. I don't trust anyone but then again I don't expect anything form anyone. If I don't change my motions I will be insane. I have only myself. and I've know that for a longtime. but untill now that thought only scared me. I fucked my life over. I work against myself so who wants to be left all alone with your worst enimy? not I but I have no choice. mayby bootcamp and the national guard will change that. because my body won't be mine it will be the governments. I like the sound of that. I don't want freedom. all I do is mess it up anyway. just take it form me. I don't want control. I don't want options. I don't want choices. I just want a future.
the question that has been running though my mind is what do I want? now i know i want independents. I want to be able to take care of myself without anyone. that is the only way I can have a future. that's it my mind is made up I'm leaving for the national gard. I only hope I don't kill myself before then.i will miss u all but rember it's only a matter of time before im nothing more than a distant memory. good luck to you all.
I can't count on anyone. I don't trust anyone but then again I don't expect anything form anyone. If I don't change my motions I will be insane. I have only myself. and I've know that for a longtime. but untill now that thought only scared me. I fucked my life over. I work against myself so who wants to be left all alone with your worst enimy? not I but I have no choice. mayby bootcamp and the national guard will change that. because my body won't be mine it will be the governments. I like the sound of that. I don't want freedom. all I do is mess it up anyway. just take it form me. I don't want control. I don't want options. I don't want choices. I just want a future.
the question that has been running though my mind is what do I want? now i know i want independents. I want to be able to take care of myself without anyone. that is the only way I can have a future. that's it my mind is made up I'm leaving for the national gard. I only hope I don't kill myself before then.i will miss u all but rember it's only a matter of time before im nothing more than a distant memory. good luck to you all.