Nov 09, 2005 00:14
Silence...I think I stopped. For the moment I'm left to only the sound of my own thoughts.*sigh*
It's slowly starting up again. Thickening. Growing with the sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. It's getting cold I should go inside. I don't feel like moving. I feel like pouting. I want to fall back 15 years and throw an old fashion fit. I want to cry till I'm gasping for air. I missed out of a lot of fun tonight.
Pitter...Pat...Pitter
I think it's happening again. My thoughts are not what they should be. If I wasn't addicted before than I think I am now.
Pitter...Pat...Pitter...Pat
I think I lost my soul I haven't felt it in weeks. My conscious has been acting funny too. I've been thinking thoughts I swore I would never think again. Even my actions have shifted.
Pitter...Pitter...Pitter...Pat
He must have found. It's no surprise I've been partying so much that I have had no energy for hiding. I'm so fucking self destructive.
Pitter..Pat...Pitter...Sob