May 31, 2005 22:01
Do what you feel in your heart to be right- for you'll be criticized anyway. You'll be damned if you do, and damned if you don't. ~Eleanor Roosevelt
Some thrive to please everyone, feeding off of others’ compliments and censure. They live life doing everything according to what everyone else will think of them instead of what they themselves will feel. I find that this way of living is impossible and constantly heart-wrenching, for I know that not everyone will always appreciate what I do. Besides, what good does it do to worry about other’s opinions of you when they have their own deeds to judge? I am not sure how this applies to others, but I know that I personally gain a sickening feeling when I do something that I feel is wrong just because another forced me to do so.
I constantly act as I feel, so much that many think my actions out of the ordinary. When I am happy, I sing and dance with no restraint. To some, these actions seem annoying, but I do them because my heart tells me to. When I am sad, I cry or vent about it, even though many think I am too open. So many people laugh at my ideas to improve the world around me such as my vegetarianism or my political opinions. They scoff when I tell of my musical inspirations. I am constantly criticized for being sloppy, quixotic, loud, annoying, and more, but I keep these traits because my behavior demands them. If I do not act like what I feel all the time, I will feel neither comfortable nor satisfied with my life. And although those who criticized me for being myself would be content, the people that enjoyed my mannerisms would then proceed to criticize me of my changes. Would I rather be damned if I follow what my heart tells me to or if I follow what the majority, not everyone, believes? The former would most certainly be the most gratifying, considering that I would fulfill myself, if not others.