Stress and Exhaustion.
That's the last few days in my life. I don't really normally do the stress thing, I just let things go as they will... go with the flow, you know?
But right now, I really feel like my entire future is hanging in limbo. I had zero motivation to do any work this term, and it's catching up with me. I've been in school too long, I have to get out, but I can't get out until I do at least another year.
and now I'm sittinf here, facing down the possible failure of two of my courses. History of Psychology. How could that be so hard? How could it be this bad?
50% midterm, 50% final. Cumulative. Two hundred names and dates and significances. 80 multiple choice, 20 fill in the blank, 5 short answer.
But it's more than that; it's an entire term of not applying myself to it. Krista told me this afternoon that she knows I would have no problem with the course if I had just gone. I absorb information like a sponge... but I have to be introduced to it first. I have no way to make up for an entire term where I didn't put any effort into the course at all.
But I have to, if I want to pass. And I have to pass if I want to keep going to university.
And I have to finish my degree if I want to evenp retend to have a future.
And I don't want to end up unemployed because I messed up on my 4053 final. Right?
Right. I have two realistic options so long as I find a way to motivate myself. For my future I could go into education, assuming I pull my marks up in my last two terms; or I can start putting more effort into my writing. I could easily do either, so long as I actually found it in myself to get it done.
Getting it done is the hardest part.
I've been studying for the last four hours, I think I'm going to pack my stuff up and see if I can get more studying done when there isn't a computer to distract me every thirty minutes. Have to go up to DQ in a couple hours anyway.
But right now, I really feel like my entire future is hanging in limbo. I had zero motivation to do any work this term, and it's catching up with me. I've been in school too long, I have to get out, but I can't get out until I do at least another year.
and now I'm sittinf here, facing down the possible failure of two of my courses. History of Psychology. How could that be so hard? How could it be this bad?
50% midterm, 50% final. Cumulative. Two hundred names and dates and significances. 80 multiple choice, 20 fill in the blank, 5 short answer.
But it's more than that; it's an entire term of not applying myself to it. Krista told me this afternoon that she knows I would have no problem with the course if I had just gone. I absorb information like a sponge... but I have to be introduced to it first. I have no way to make up for an entire term where I didn't put any effort into the course at all.
But I have to, if I want to pass. And I have to pass if I want to keep going to university.
And I have to finish my degree if I want to evenp retend to have a future.
And I don't want to end up unemployed because I messed up on my 4053 final. Right?
Right. I have two realistic options so long as I find a way to motivate myself. For my future I could go into education, assuming I pull my marks up in my last two terms; or I can start putting more effort into my writing. I could easily do either, so long as I actually found it in myself to get it done.
Getting it done is the hardest part.
I've been studying for the last four hours, I think I'm going to pack my stuff up and see if I can get more studying done when there isn't a computer to distract me every thirty minutes. Have to go up to DQ in a couple hours anyway.