What it means to be in school
It is funny to remember where I was last two years, who I was last two years. Less than 6 months ago, I was completely lost. I had absolutely no direction and the only thing that kept me going was my relationship with Ryan. Its not to say that I was unhappy, but I was just floating with almost nothing to hold onto.
Its crazy to me how much school has made a difference. Its challenging, and its a relief to have to push myself to the limit. I am finally using the hard won skills from college. My work finally is a means to an end, not just to fill the time. I don't hope any more, I don't dream the way I used to. I dont have to because finally my plans are kicking in.
I still cannot believe I got into Rockefeller. Its one of the best schools in the nation. It also happens to be located incredibly close to RPI, my boyfriend's school. And, to top it all off, I love it. I love my fellow students, love my classes and I am actually excited about the classes I will be taking. Sometimes I feel that I am dreaming.
Even better, being in school has been very healthy for my relationship with Ryan. I think that I am happier feeling purposeful, even if I am stressed out more. I don't have to justify my work because it is actually meaningful. And all of these things has enhanced all of the good qualities my relationship with Ryan. I love living with him.
I was so damn scared last year. I did not even want to hope that I could get into school. But really and truly, everything in my life is perfect. I will take the anxiety and panic over the fear and despair any day.
FUCK YES.
Its crazy to me how much school has made a difference. Its challenging, and its a relief to have to push myself to the limit. I am finally using the hard won skills from college. My work finally is a means to an end, not just to fill the time. I don't hope any more, I don't dream the way I used to. I dont have to because finally my plans are kicking in.
I still cannot believe I got into Rockefeller. Its one of the best schools in the nation. It also happens to be located incredibly close to RPI, my boyfriend's school. And, to top it all off, I love it. I love my fellow students, love my classes and I am actually excited about the classes I will be taking. Sometimes I feel that I am dreaming.
Even better, being in school has been very healthy for my relationship with Ryan. I think that I am happier feeling purposeful, even if I am stressed out more. I don't have to justify my work because it is actually meaningful. And all of these things has enhanced all of the good qualities my relationship with Ryan. I love living with him.
I was so damn scared last year. I did not even want to hope that I could get into school. But really and truly, everything in my life is perfect. I will take the anxiety and panic over the fear and despair any day.
FUCK YES.