fun fun fun!
so much is happening that it is insane, completely and utterly incomprehensible. ! how's that for you? I mean, just that simple fact that in a few MONTHS. a FEW, i'll be a GRADUATE of Nutley High School. Seniors, do you feel this? Time is going entirely too quickly, yet somehow not quickly enough. so much unknown, so much undecided, so much to wait for. It's this duality, but I like it, but I don't... but I like it, but I don't. I like it.
But where is spring? I don't know, it's around. I want to be ready for it. I'm not ready for it tonight, so it's not here. We'll see about tomorrow, the next day, and the next. The spring isn't dictated [for me] by the date, nor the temperature, but rather by something of an entirely different quality.
If you know what spring is, then you understand me perfectly.
I want to do fun things, I want to make plans. (haha, on top of all the ones I already have.) nonsense, there is always room for more, always. thanks for that.
School has become easy, yet still does contain elements of tedious work. I believe that it will always contain those elements. That's why it's school. This week we've been comming in late which has been fantastic. Waking up a few hours later, working out, eating breakfast without rushing, enjoying the morning sunshine comming into my room.
SPEAKING OF WHICH! !!!! day light savings sunday!!!! 3 weeks early, lets see how it turns out!!!
I'm terrified that this year will be a repetition of last year's horrendous spring and summer. I tried so hard to make it perfect, and in doing so ruined it.
Therefore I am not going to try.
We should live a lot of life simply. Just like the way you play catch with your dog (if you have one). It's just simple. That moment without thought, without needs, without wants... just happiness in action. It's an awful analogy, but it felt right when I was playing with Julie the other day, it just felt soo right. Now, I'm not saying all of life should be this way, not at all. But more than is now.
I want to uncomplicate things, terribly so.
I think, I hope, they will become undone of themselves.
Things work out, or so the optimist believes.
So I believe!
But where is spring? I don't know, it's around. I want to be ready for it. I'm not ready for it tonight, so it's not here. We'll see about tomorrow, the next day, and the next. The spring isn't dictated [for me] by the date, nor the temperature, but rather by something of an entirely different quality.
If you know what spring is, then you understand me perfectly.
I want to do fun things, I want to make plans. (haha, on top of all the ones I already have.) nonsense, there is always room for more, always. thanks for that.
School has become easy, yet still does contain elements of tedious work. I believe that it will always contain those elements. That's why it's school. This week we've been comming in late which has been fantastic. Waking up a few hours later, working out, eating breakfast without rushing, enjoying the morning sunshine comming into my room.
SPEAKING OF WHICH! !!!! day light savings sunday!!!! 3 weeks early, lets see how it turns out!!!
I'm terrified that this year will be a repetition of last year's horrendous spring and summer. I tried so hard to make it perfect, and in doing so ruined it.
Therefore I am not going to try.
We should live a lot of life simply. Just like the way you play catch with your dog (if you have one). It's just simple. That moment without thought, without needs, without wants... just happiness in action. It's an awful analogy, but it felt right when I was playing with Julie the other day, it just felt soo right. Now, I'm not saying all of life should be this way, not at all. But more than is now.
I want to uncomplicate things, terribly so.
I think, I hope, they will become undone of themselves.
Things work out, or so the optimist believes.
So I believe!