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Title:Blinded
Author:me 2_shots
Rating:pg-13
Summary:Gerard has deep feelings for Frank but he is already taken.
Blinded
Frank.I really need to stop thinking about him.I mean he has a boyfriend for god sakes! Its not like he thinks of me like that anyway.I'm just the cool but kinda weird friend Gerard.The guy thats there for everyone but himself.
I'm scared to think of what Quinn would do to me if he found out I was in love with his boyfriend.Probably kick my ass.Its not like that would be anything new though.I've been made fun of my entire life for being the queer.The gay kid that sits in the back of the class with his red eyeshadow and writing journal.Frank wouldn't get made fun of for being gay.Quinn is tough and would kick anybody's ass if they mess with his Frankie.
I just cant help but think about him.His big golden brown eyes soft black hair and gorgeous body.He's so beautiful.I wish he was mine and he felt the same.But Frank is too absorbed in Quinn to notice anyone else.I dont blame him though,he and Quinn look like the perfect couple on the outside but I know better.
A few months ago all of our friends had come over to hang out.Nobody felt like driving so everybody spent the night.My room was right next to the guest room Frank and Quinn were staying in.During the middle of the night I was awoken by quiet sobbing and the sound of movement in the next room.Then I heard Quinn's voice.He sounded angry.
"Frank shut the fuck up somebody's gonna hear you!"
"Quinn please stop i dont want this" Frank sobbed like he was having a complete breakdown.
"I don't care what you want you little bitch"
The next thing I hear is a cry of pain and a deep moan.I tried not to think about what was happening to Frank.Why would Quinn want to hurt such a beautiful human being like that?I wanted to go help Frank but I was no match for Quinn.they would both be angry that I was listening in.I finally fell asleep about a half hour later when Frank's crying had stopped.The next day I couldn't look at Frank without my eyes welling up.It made me even sadder when each time that happened Frank being the sweet person he was would come and put his arms around my neck asking me what was wrong.And each time Frank tried to console me I could see the jealousy in Quinn's eyes.I couldn't look at Quinn without a barely controllable rage building up in side of me.I tried to block that night out so I could actually act normal around my friends but it was always in the back of my mind reminding me that I was allowing the person I loved to be abused.Reminding me that I was too weak to help Frank and stand up for him.
My brother Mikey urges me to tell Frank saying he has the right to know how I feel.I've tried to tell him but he thought it was a joke.
"Frank I need to tell you something" I say nervously sitting on the couch next to him.
"Sure Gee" he says turning to face me and sitting Indian style so he can look into my eyes.
"I know you don't feel the same and you'll probably get really mad at me but...I love you" I say it all in one breath as it spills out of my mouth.He just laughs and kisses me on the cheek playfully before saying "Love you too Gee".I fake a laugh and tell Frank I'm tired.He says to me goodnight and walks into the kitchen.I walk slowly up the stairs in a slight daze,completely numb from what just happened.I walk into my room and sit on the edge of my bed groping around in the top drawer of my nightstand for the revolver.My hand lands on cold steel.I pull the gun out of the drawer and load the bullets into it.I close my eyes and put the mouth of the gun to my temple.My finger is on the trigger when I freeze up.I know I can't do this,I'm too much of a coward.Too much of a coward to save Frank's life and too much of a coward to end my own.
Author:me 2_shots
Rating:pg-13
Summary:Gerard has deep feelings for Frank but he is already taken.
Blinded
Frank.I really need to stop thinking about him.I mean he has a boyfriend for god sakes! Its not like he thinks of me like that anyway.I'm just the cool but kinda weird friend Gerard.The guy thats there for everyone but himself.
I'm scared to think of what Quinn would do to me if he found out I was in love with his boyfriend.Probably kick my ass.Its not like that would be anything new though.I've been made fun of my entire life for being the queer.The gay kid that sits in the back of the class with his red eyeshadow and writing journal.Frank wouldn't get made fun of for being gay.Quinn is tough and would kick anybody's ass if they mess with his Frankie.
I just cant help but think about him.His big golden brown eyes soft black hair and gorgeous body.He's so beautiful.I wish he was mine and he felt the same.But Frank is too absorbed in Quinn to notice anyone else.I dont blame him though,he and Quinn look like the perfect couple on the outside but I know better.
A few months ago all of our friends had come over to hang out.Nobody felt like driving so everybody spent the night.My room was right next to the guest room Frank and Quinn were staying in.During the middle of the night I was awoken by quiet sobbing and the sound of movement in the next room.Then I heard Quinn's voice.He sounded angry.
"Frank shut the fuck up somebody's gonna hear you!"
"Quinn please stop i dont want this" Frank sobbed like he was having a complete breakdown.
"I don't care what you want you little bitch"
The next thing I hear is a cry of pain and a deep moan.I tried not to think about what was happening to Frank.Why would Quinn want to hurt such a beautiful human being like that?I wanted to go help Frank but I was no match for Quinn.they would both be angry that I was listening in.I finally fell asleep about a half hour later when Frank's crying had stopped.The next day I couldn't look at Frank without my eyes welling up.It made me even sadder when each time that happened Frank being the sweet person he was would come and put his arms around my neck asking me what was wrong.And each time Frank tried to console me I could see the jealousy in Quinn's eyes.I couldn't look at Quinn without a barely controllable rage building up in side of me.I tried to block that night out so I could actually act normal around my friends but it was always in the back of my mind reminding me that I was allowing the person I loved to be abused.Reminding me that I was too weak to help Frank and stand up for him.
My brother Mikey urges me to tell Frank saying he has the right to know how I feel.I've tried to tell him but he thought it was a joke.
"Frank I need to tell you something" I say nervously sitting on the couch next to him.
"Sure Gee" he says turning to face me and sitting Indian style so he can look into my eyes.
"I know you don't feel the same and you'll probably get really mad at me but...I love you" I say it all in one breath as it spills out of my mouth.He just laughs and kisses me on the cheek playfully before saying "Love you too Gee".I fake a laugh and tell Frank I'm tired.He says to me goodnight and walks into the kitchen.I walk slowly up the stairs in a slight daze,completely numb from what just happened.I walk into my room and sit on the edge of my bed groping around in the top drawer of my nightstand for the revolver.My hand lands on cold steel.I pull the gun out of the drawer and load the bullets into it.I close my eyes and put the mouth of the gun to my temple.My finger is on the trigger when I freeze up.I know I can't do this,I'm too much of a coward.Too much of a coward to save Frank's life and too much of a coward to end my own.