choking on tears
i cant stop crying....i'm going to miss everyone so much....i'm going to miss alyssa the most....i wish i could make everything up to her....i dont know how to make her see how much i'm dying inside from having to go....i dont know how to make her realize that YES i love her with all my heart and YES i'm really going to miss her....all those hurtful things i said to her....all the times i made her cry....i could have been doing all the opposite.....cause god knows and so does my heart that i love her and feel no hate what so ever or regret towards her or what we've been through....i love her with all my heart and....i'm always going to have this huge hole in it that only she can fill....my heart belongs to her and always will....i gave my heart to my best friend and i dont regret one moment of it and i hope you know that alyssa. i love you.