i'm abusive...and i want you all to look at me and say i'm a horrible person
i talked to an abuse therapist...i told them how i treated alyssa and how i can with her...they started telling me that what i was doing was considered abuse...and that i dont deserve her...the told me that if i dont leave her alone things could get worse and that i might end up hurting her...they started to yell at me cause i started crying...they told me i have no right to cry...that i'm not the victim...they made me say that i'm a terrible person...they made me repeat it over and over again...i'm so sorry...oh my god i'm so sorry...i had no idea...i'm so sorry...