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WHAT'S POPPIN YA! I really don't feel like doing home work and my parents just went to the doctors so I decided to smoke a "l". My homegirl is on her way, some of u might know her as Kitty_fcuck_22. As I sit here smoking & listening to reegaeton I find it crazy how although I was born, raised and live in Newyork I have always had this attachment to Puerto Rico. I'm dying to go on vacation. I would love to see P.R. as a tourist. I've only been there as a relative-so nobody's really on vaca, therefore I visit their everyday life and I learn my history in school, one of my subjects of interest by the way. So yea, I want to live there even though I know there's not that much to offer out there. So I'm thinking when I retire I'll by me a house in P.R. and take it back to the motherland-well not Africa but the next one(lol). There's always that feeling of comfort back home and although I was born and raised here my family, my roots, everything is over there. Here I have an option of living the all "American Dream" with no real family or back home, where the family is at, the comfort, the support, the warm weather (yea-lol). Na but for real that's how I feel.
It was also wierd cuz in class the other day the professor said there are a lot of people from the carribean who deny their African ancestory. And I was like I always said I was Black in school, as a joke b/c I was light skinned but I was serious b/c I knew my history and I knew I was black even though many, inclunding my parents, would not accept. [eventually my father caught on- I don't know what my mother thinks about anything] Anyways so the professor goes on to say, I'm sorry for those of you who don't think your Black cuz you are....and I was like "ahhh" someone is aware of what I was talking about...lol..na I can't front there are alot more individuals recognizing their roots than before...but it feels good to know this and know where you come from...my father cut sugarcane, picked cotton and walked on bare feet...and look at me to damn lazy to walk 10 blocks, in front of a computer with air conditioning, music, collecting unemployment...damn I made me sound fucked up...but have any of ya ever thought like that at one point...how do ya feel...see what happens when u smoke-too much thinking....I'm out!