rant to all my shitty ass friends.
pissed of at 97% of my friends currently.
the only two that read this that im not nessacerally pissed at are Catherine and Whitney.
Kristen is the other that im not pissed at, but she doesnt have lj.
let me just fucking say...
y'all are some REALLY great fucking friends.
I invite you over
I try to go over there
NEITHER WORK SO YOU SAY "next weekend"
I hear nothing from you after that, even when I try to get intouch with you
WHICH IS REALLY FUCKING HARD FOR ME SEEING I DONT HAVE INTERNET OR A PHONE.
act as if i'm not here
i don't fucking exist.
I'm the only one back in New Orleans
you'd think I'm depressed enough driving through lakeveiw just to get fucking food.. just to go to fucking school.
so, I try to go out on the weekends
my parents would be willing to drive me to BR or anywhere that isn't over 2 hours away.
which most of the places my friends are ARENT.
most of my friends are 45min to and hour away.
I try to get intouch.
I try and try.
you ignor and ignor.
THANKS A WHOLE FUCKING LOT.
you know something?
I dont do ANYTHING on the weekends anymore...
AT ALL.
I've been sober for over three months
and no cigs, either.
so, those can't be substitutes for friends.
I have Kristen.(she actually came BACK just for ME... now that's a good friend)
and GOD, do I love her.
I love her to death.
other then her, though...
fuck you.
you know my meds are upped?
150 to 300
THREE FUCKING HUNDRED.
and they still aren't helping much.
other than Kristen and my parents... I actually AM fucking alone.
and I have all of you to thank for it.
so, THANKS... I just wanted to let you know how invisible and shitty you make me feel.
some friends yall are.
CATHERINE, IF YOU READ THIS, COMMENT, I MISS YOU! I'll give you my moms cell number or something...
i love you.
I actually really do hope yall feel guilty... I really do.
you fucking deserve it.
I've been there for ALL of you.
I TRY to see you.
I WANT to see you.
in other words... I've done the opposite of all of yall.
.FUCK.YOU.
[in Bossier City. bother parents went out of town i had to follow one so I came with my mom.)
I could tell you some good news
but, you wouldnt want to hear it, would you?
it doesn't even have to do with any of you.
just my FAMILY.
you know, they are right... your family WILL always be there but your friends WOUNT.
thanks a WHOLE fucking lot.
ass.
the only two that read this that im not nessacerally pissed at are Catherine and Whitney.
Kristen is the other that im not pissed at, but she doesnt have lj.
let me just fucking say...
y'all are some REALLY great fucking friends.
I invite you over
I try to go over there
NEITHER WORK SO YOU SAY "next weekend"
I hear nothing from you after that, even when I try to get intouch with you
WHICH IS REALLY FUCKING HARD FOR ME SEEING I DONT HAVE INTERNET OR A PHONE.
act as if i'm not here
i don't fucking exist.
I'm the only one back in New Orleans
you'd think I'm depressed enough driving through lakeveiw just to get fucking food.. just to go to fucking school.
so, I try to go out on the weekends
my parents would be willing to drive me to BR or anywhere that isn't over 2 hours away.
which most of the places my friends are ARENT.
most of my friends are 45min to and hour away.
I try to get intouch.
I try and try.
you ignor and ignor.
THANKS A WHOLE FUCKING LOT.
you know something?
I dont do ANYTHING on the weekends anymore...
AT ALL.
I've been sober for over three months
and no cigs, either.
so, those can't be substitutes for friends.
I have Kristen.(she actually came BACK just for ME... now that's a good friend)
and GOD, do I love her.
I love her to death.
other then her, though...
fuck you.
you know my meds are upped?
150 to 300
THREE FUCKING HUNDRED.
and they still aren't helping much.
other than Kristen and my parents... I actually AM fucking alone.
and I have all of you to thank for it.
so, THANKS... I just wanted to let you know how invisible and shitty you make me feel.
some friends yall are.
CATHERINE, IF YOU READ THIS, COMMENT, I MISS YOU! I'll give you my moms cell number or something...
i love you.
I actually really do hope yall feel guilty... I really do.
you fucking deserve it.
I've been there for ALL of you.
I TRY to see you.
I WANT to see you.
in other words... I've done the opposite of all of yall.
.FUCK.YOU.
[in Bossier City. bother parents went out of town i had to follow one so I came with my mom.)
I could tell you some good news
but, you wouldnt want to hear it, would you?
it doesn't even have to do with any of you.
just my FAMILY.
you know, they are right... your family WILL always be there but your friends WOUNT.
thanks a WHOLE fucking lot.
ass.