Apr 11, 2007 21:45
Dear abusive parent,
I am writing to ask a favor. I don't know who else to as, and you are s'pose to be smarter than me. I promise I will be good if you will just listen without getting angry at me. I get pretty scared when you are mad. So please, just listen. Sometimes, when you hit me, you act like you hate me and wish that I wasn't your kid. That makes me very sad. Sometimes, I don't even know what I did to make you mad. I don't mean to be bad. I try my best to be good, but even when I am you still aren't happy. Would you be happier if I was gone? i think about running away sometimes, but I don't know how to get to Grandma's house unless you drive and it's pretty cold outside right now. And this part really scares me, but I have to tell. dad, when you come into my room at night when Mommy's gone, and do bad things to me, I fall asleep crying. Not because it hurts, but because I trusted you. I thought you loved me and was s'pose to take care of me while mommy's gone. What you do makes me feel very bad and ashamed and it does hurt me, in my heart. I have nightmares about it too. sometimes when i see Bobby down the street, with his Mom and Dad, they are holding hands and walking together. Bobby's mom gives him lots of hugs and his dad plays ball with him on Saturdays. When i see them so happy, I wish we could be too. And Sally's Dad is real nice to her and I don't think he goes into her room to do the same things you do. I think he just kisses her and tells her he loves her, then says goodnight. thats what I think daddies are s'pose to do. Or are all daddies like you? Sometimes when I try tmy best to get good grades, or clean my room, or eat all of my food, you both yell and scream a lot and tell me I'm slow, or that I'll never amount to anything. That makes me feel stupid and hurts my feeling, but what hurts the most is that you never tell me when I do good. You never tell me that you love me. Do you love me? Or do you really hate me and wish I'd never been born like you said? I'm just a little kid and I have a lot to learn, but I can't do it by myself. I need your help and your love. If nobody loves me, how will I ever grow up to be a good person? I dont' think I'll ever hit someone I'm s'pose to love or make them do things they should never have to dountil they're big like you. And if I have a kid, I will give them lots of hugs and kisses and tell them i love them every day. I will hlep them learn and teach them rigth from wrong and if they make a mistake, that will be O.K. Cause nobody is perfect, especially a little kid. Mom and Dad, I wish you loved me enough to get help, cause I do love you, even when you hurt me. If you can't find a way to stop hurting me, could you please find me new parents?
Love,
Your Kid