Feeling Better /spending money on things needed not wanted
well I can't believe we spent $450 on a black suit, black overcoat, tie, gloves. Dreary on such a commercially made up holiday, but we had planned on buying each others IPOD so it was unexpected. Now Michael is a pall bearer for Gwynne's moms funeral on Friday. It was his choice, he knew her more than I, but I also bought her car from her and will always have the Lahave River in common. I am surprised Gwynne is holding up but it was a long illness. Sadie is mush - but living with her grandparents for the last 4 yrs they became so much closer. Paul has rizin to Taniste that he is becoming.
Otherwords, I feel better, 3 doses of antibiotics is killing this bug thing I hope. I am hacking green stuff up and out so thats a good thing I guess. I took double b-12 and b-6 today and a full dose of insulin. I am still experiancing the blurry vision but its getting alittle better.
3 inches of slush will turn into ice tomorrow - yuck - going to the wake in this weather is going to really suck. I hope fridays weather will be better - her funeral is at the same church Michael and I got married and the service room is up a spiral staircase on either side of the room - thats going to be hard on the men carring the casket - up a weird staircase and then all the slush at the grave site. Michael is 1 of 6 pall bearer is good.
I have to say that I am glad my mom is rather healthy and that I took the Mom/daughters seminar last month. It really has changed my attitude with my mom and that I can actually see all the little things that she has done lately is her way of loving me. Thats Huge for me (Thanks NZ)! Mom is actually working at the store for me so i can go to the Funeral - something I never thought (A) that I could ask her too (B) that she would (C) that we would ever communicate again without the hard feelings we have had while I was growing up. Wow how things change - and I have to say after hearing 2 mothers who have recently died,who have left behind strong, beautiful, powerful women. It's given me the chance to do the seminar with a clearer mind
and really shift in regards to my relationship with my mom. I actually let her come from her place of "Being mom" when I grew up with her "Being the older nasty sister" it's let me see her trying to fit in the role. I also have noticed my conversations with her are no longer strained, more communicating then snide remarks to each other. I look forward to exploring more with ner. NOW trying to talk to my DAD is going to take a lot - he never talks, to anyone! He has more wrong with him, that makes me think he would go before my mother, she would loose it. He would too, it's said that I know it's coming - but I want to have a better relationship with both parents before that happens.
Ok, time ot watch American Idol and General!
Otherwords, I feel better, 3 doses of antibiotics is killing this bug thing I hope. I am hacking green stuff up and out so thats a good thing I guess. I took double b-12 and b-6 today and a full dose of insulin. I am still experiancing the blurry vision but its getting alittle better.
3 inches of slush will turn into ice tomorrow - yuck - going to the wake in this weather is going to really suck. I hope fridays weather will be better - her funeral is at the same church Michael and I got married and the service room is up a spiral staircase on either side of the room - thats going to be hard on the men carring the casket - up a weird staircase and then all the slush at the grave site. Michael is 1 of 6 pall bearer is good.
I have to say that I am glad my mom is rather healthy and that I took the Mom/daughters seminar last month. It really has changed my attitude with my mom and that I can actually see all the little things that she has done lately is her way of loving me. Thats Huge for me (Thanks NZ)! Mom is actually working at the store for me so i can go to the Funeral - something I never thought (A) that I could ask her too (B) that she would (C) that we would ever communicate again without the hard feelings we have had while I was growing up. Wow how things change - and I have to say after hearing 2 mothers who have recently died,who have left behind strong, beautiful, powerful women. It's given me the chance to do the seminar with a clearer mind
and really shift in regards to my relationship with my mom. I actually let her come from her place of "Being mom" when I grew up with her "Being the older nasty sister" it's let me see her trying to fit in the role. I also have noticed my conversations with her are no longer strained, more communicating then snide remarks to each other. I look forward to exploring more with ner. NOW trying to talk to my DAD is going to take a lot - he never talks, to anyone! He has more wrong with him, that makes me think he would go before my mother, she would loose it. He would too, it's said that I know it's coming - but I want to have a better relationship with both parents before that happens.
Ok, time ot watch American Idol and General!