so sad
knew it was coming but i wasn't ready for it to be a repeat of patrick - on the phone, random, for no reason.
he wont talk to me. he hates me.
i hate me.
on friday afternoon i took a bunch of gravols. i didn't want to die but figured if it happened, i'd get lucky.
i'm so sad.
i can't function.
i wish i'd just be caught in some crossfire somewhere.
i wish he'd still want me. still care for me.
but that's what you get when you love a drug-addicted rockstar.
i miss him so much
i just want shit to be back to normal
i want to feel good again.
it's like the minute he ended it, i had all these thoughts that i'd silenced just start to scream.
5 hours of exercise.
i feel like shit.
i just want someone to love me. that's a lie. i want him to love me.
i wish i was as tough as everyone thought, but i'm so fragile and so weak.
and oh so very
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d
he wont talk to me. he hates me.
i hate me.
on friday afternoon i took a bunch of gravols. i didn't want to die but figured if it happened, i'd get lucky.
i'm so sad.
i can't function.
i wish i'd just be caught in some crossfire somewhere.
i wish he'd still want me. still care for me.
but that's what you get when you love a drug-addicted rockstar.
i miss him so much
i just want shit to be back to normal
i want to feel good again.
it's like the minute he ended it, i had all these thoughts that i'd silenced just start to scream.
5 hours of exercise.
i feel like shit.
i just want someone to love me. that's a lie. i want him to love me.
i wish i was as tough as everyone thought, but i'm so fragile and so weak.
and oh so very
s
a
d